S Club 7

Reason, tiMe, aLoNe... = ruBBisH.

2006-12-09T23:06:00.000-08:00

Not only deceived, but a stupid reason...
u said it was a stupid one .. i didnt make it happen... but u did ...
and now i am asking myself , can i accept it ,..
i jus simply dunnoe why u can ....

u are e winner...

2006-12-06T08:59:00.000-08:00

at that very moment, i got the urge of bursting when i saw it, that, those.. .
its drawing near....
wad is happening...
am i moving or was i stuck all along....
u were still there..... but i have nth to say..
i forgot to said something.. .u are the winner.. u won .... happy ?

How True is True...

2006-10-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

****************You are intelligent and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you're patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love. ***********************

How true is this...
surprsingly i am blogging today.. tis time, tis DAY... tis DATE...
and surprisingly its still alive... tot its dead long ago... or rather Vanish from earth...

NO More SI 3

2006-09-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

WASTE of MY time... make me chong back and wad i get is a kelong results..
Arrrgggggggg....
No more SI 3 .... reali wasting everybody time and $$$$$$$
take the $$ go eat better...

uGly siDe of huMaNs?

2006-08-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

WHY do i see tHe uGly siDe of huMaNs again and oNce AgaiN? again and again and again.. incidents are happening around... i simply cannot take it... but yet its happening.. not only to me but oso to my frenz.. Let me out ....

Get Me OUT

2006-08-10T09:18:00.000-07:00

All of a sudden, ever since last nite incident.. i feel so tire.. i jus wanna get out of tis place and stop everything... i am so tire ... can i quit and stop it .... you make people worry for u ..and now.. making someone shed coz of disappointment... I realise i jus wanna get out of it.. get out of everything... i jus wanna leave sliently now and nv make things happen... ever again?

Xin's Quote: Nothing is Perfect in the world

2006-07-23T09:25:00.000-07:00

Just as i was about to turn in... jump to my bed and shut my lappy... a fren of mine doesnt seems to be happy over something... needless to say.. its the usual thing that is making my fren unhappy....
Although right now i still do not noe wad exactly has happen as my fren is still trying to claim down and i still dun dare to ask much... i wanna ask... y...WHY is this world filled with evil, irresponsible and unfair people and things... Stop torturing pple if u want to.. stop bringing the unhappy surface to this world.. at times i jus feel like shouting it out, ENOUGH.. why cant all tis things stop. make it a full-stop... no matter how unhappy u are, u shldnt have vent ur anger on other, u shldnt have give pple any false hopes... if u are doing so, u are jus torturing the person...
and all of a sudden, there is a urge to say this as it came across my mind... {Jus let go and leave quietly...what exactly is tis world}..tell me... tell me..TELL ME....

Life

2006-07-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

First of all, let me congrats paige upon reading her blog.. can sense her happiness she is having right now... so glad she found her one...

Well, its been weeks since i last blogged... y hasnt i been updating... how has my life been exactly.. lotsa mixed feelings... and recently when the truth of my fren and the other fren prob actually exposed, i shattered... both of them are my 7 years of frenz... where exactly shld i side... my heart was reali aching that nite...that very special fri nite... knowing that both do not wan to spoilt my day... they pretend nth happen.. however, i am rather glad they are ok already...

i kept asking myself.. how exactly do i feel all along... i ask myself: am i strong or am i too numb to realise it and choose to ignore it... i saw this zodiac thing.. cancerian are strong from the outside and vunerable in the inside.. is tis reali true... my fren said y i always sound so busy with sch stuffs and told me to takecare and not collaspe... and i reply asking back, wad if i were to collaspe one day... a chinese sentence came across my mind and says, "zai jiang qiang de ren ye hui you cui ruo de yi mian de."

Sharing Time...

2006-06-03T09:20:00.001-07:00

Its been more than month since i last blogged... not tat i have nth to blog.. jus dunnoe wad to put in it.... but tis is a mail i got from a fren... how true can it be depends on individual thinking... no one is right or wrong.. here you go frenz...

SOME OF THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE ARE FOR FREE"

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

sO wads your view towards it? is it true to you?
anyway, nitez and luck for upcoming papers...

2006-06-03T09:20:00.000-07:00

stiLL iN battLe

2006-04-15T03:20:00.000-07:00

FAintz... still in the mid of fighting in a battle with two more germs... my cough and slight flu... if tis happens last sat, i wuldnt have gone to the dinner liao... haha...
Well, i was so blur queen today.. tot that zhang shao wei came to plaza today den went to take a look to see if got ppl queuing anot.. but no lei.. den headed to uncle house... at 3plus , walk past again still dun have.. wahaha... its actually tml la... faintz... so blur.. ..
Its another weekend .... one more week to go ... to sch reopen... have i played and enjoyed to the fullest? i believe i have yet to reach certain of my goals which i wanna get it done during tis holidays.. haiz... dunnoe when can make it come true.. .
its been almost fews days liao.. have yet to hear from a fren of mine.. .wonder wad happen.. hope everything is ok.... takecare ... .. ..

40 Degrees again?

2006-04-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

The last time i got a fever was during january? i rmb rather clearly ba.... definitelyt during jan... well, during that day, it indeed shoot to 40degrees and still went back to sch for project after seeing doctor... wad abt today?
it went up as high as 39 degree during the afternoon... didnt noe until i took out the thermometer... so weak like dead body... been sleeping the whole afternoon.... reali dun feel like doing anything at all.. jus slp and slp.... voice was still super weak or rather sexy? wahaha..
Till the nite arrives, usual routine.. watch tv but on bed.. and watch superband results... my senior got in.... was rather gan chong when dunnoe who gets in or out of the match... inform to the person...but no response over it....
I oso dunnoe i have been thinking abt.... maybe jus too sick to think liao... slp the whole afternoon.... what can i do now? slp again? oh no..... tis is gonna be mad la.... but thats wad sickness are for,... they are meant to ask u slp and slp....

siCk...

2006-04-09T10:07:00.000-07:00

hmm, after holiday for so long... hmm, i am finally sick? got a terrible bad throat rite now... killing me that reali hard to fall aslp...
This weekend was rather tiring and busy...
During sat, a granny 81th birthday and gotta go attend it.. got home at 12am plus.. the following day gotta go praying early in the morning... throat started to have effect....that is the pain is coming more and more... plus the smoke of the joysticks ... oh my god... worse... breathe in and out .. worse still is wad. dad's car spoilt... faintz... low batt... den my uncle can still crack a joke asking us to use handphones to charge the batt for the car.. oh my god... so cold.... faintz... . gotta wait for abt few hours before its is totally ready...
After that got into the car, so cooling and doze off immediately...
Thinking back wad cousin asked me today... guess its a must that u gotta face it up any point of time when it happened....
Too many things to update recently.. lappy hard disk got crash , was so scare that many things were gone..but could it be a good thing? that helps my lappy reduce the number of rubbish...
other den this... still many things running thru my mind..... recently heard a news that got a fan of JJ actually went to jump the river, "he" ... Why? whats the point of doing so... doing something stupid can actually help u gain something u wanna get? what the point of it if the other party doesnt appreciates it.. no matter wad ways or means u try, u may not get wad u wan... even if u get it.. will u be happy? will u be satisfy? there is no perfection in this world.. if there is, u wuld be sitting down here reading blog... are blog meant for us to throw our feelings in and share it up?
if so, wad abt the sea? can i scream it out loud..
Too weak to say anything... throat is killing me.. but culdnt slp... ..
Takecare frenz, drink lotsa water.. nitez

Fast Moving Pace...

2006-03-26T03:54:00.000-08:00

Jus got out from a cooling bath.. feeling refreshing rite now... have yet to have dinner yet... jus finished making juices.... what does it contain today? well, it has celery, oranges and carrot... for today's juice, the celery smell is reali strong... even bro say yucks... while i was cutting it, i could sense tat tis time round, the celery is gonna be the master of the drink of all....
So tire rite now... but jus hav the mood to sit down here, listening to corrine may song rite now and typing and typing....
How's my day, nth much actually, headed for lunch cum breakfast at 1pm like tat.... had prawn mee at pandan garden... after that, wanted to go see bedsheet but nth special la... bluff ppl one... den since its so near JP, we went to JP for a walk... saw kids singing.... nowadays, kids arh... are getting more and more daring.... including parents themselve... got their children to dress up so like opera pattern and up they go to the stage.... haha.... seeing the kids walking like a model like nobody biz... what will they be like when they grow up... are kids now reali hard to teach... if u have the will.... believe there is a way to it..... good luck to me who wishes to head to this path....
Another thing that tempted me today, was a bag... has always been aiming for a dream bag of mine... but have yet to arrive .... saw one today... puma brand... green colour... was hesitating for a long time as to wanna buy or not... when family got in courts , i still thinking can i go down and take a second look... its so tempting.... even mum agree its nice... haha.. but gotta shoot back by her by saying "dun u think u got lotsa bags?" oops... true la... i go quite a number... but some are time to bring them to the museum liao.. walk and walk... i passed by another shop again and saw the bag once again... tis time round i headed in and take a closer look at it... hmm, inside the bag , not much of compartments which i wan... jus a normal zip and thats all... den the handle wasnt long enough for me to slip in easily.. so off i go.... still will tempt to have it coz the colour is one that i have been eyeing for.... so many things to eye for.. but when will i find the true one... life is nv perfect in tis world.. i hope for the best but oso the true one....
No, thats not the end of my shopping day, keke... brother saw a shirt tats looks nice and off i go and try.. it indeed tempted me to buy without thinking twice and yup.. i did bought it..coz mum oso say nice too.. haha.. before that saw one rather similar one ... but drop the idea for time being... if i am fated to buy that, i will see it once again.. keke... sure to see it de coz there are so many outlet in singapore... thats none other den world of sports.... even my nearest shopping centre BPP oso got lor.. how to not go buy... keke....
Alright.. think its time for dinner.... thats all for now...
Have a good week ahead to all my dear Frenz ....

Despite the Fall....

2006-03-24T09:03:00.000-08:00

Despite whatever has happened today... still proceed on to the celebration of my dad's birthday.... headed down to suntec city and had ribs and steak at Tony Romas... sides dishes includes colsaw and beans... one of my favourites... the ribs were abit spicy but had the honey one too.. coz bro ordered that.... for me is forever the spicy way.... as for the steak, hnmmm, its nice and medium done.. mum didnt dare to eat at all coz of the redness she saw in the steak...always same pattern one.. so instead she ordered ribs and grilled shrimps.... look like satay though.... so full, can see my mini tummy liao... after that, went walked around and went into carrefour (did i spell it correctly?)... hmm, anyway, didnt expect to buy anything but family in the end bought pillow and bloster... and for me, hmm, i got towels which looks so tempting in terms of colours... got a wide variety of colours to choose ..... and the quality is not bad too... so i took light blue and pink... time to use time.... alright.... gotta visit my dreamland...
Smiles JiNgz....

Chicago CheeseCake

2006-03-20T22:06:00.000-08:00

Oh my god... muz reali blog tis time round.. went to have cheesecake with mum today... keke... finally i been long waiting for .... cheesecake here i come.... so yummy... last week saw u but didnt buy coz dino dun like cheese... today... i gonna eat u up.... and i did.... keke.... so cheesy and nice... but somehow,, the cheese smell can be stronger lei ... keke.... but for the drink... hmm, not reali nice, ordered the wrong one... shld hav order something else la..... anyway, i managed to eat finished it and enjoying the cooling aircon which was reli cold... haha..... but thanks to the rain tat make me decide to stay put and eat you up.... keke...

Sharing Time

2006-03-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

Here is some stuff i wanna share it out after reading this email.. and how many of us still read emails now... do we still have the time now? how much time and days do we have in our life... wad exactly do u do during ur spare time?

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two
1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who ! isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. !
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

How mucH mOre to noE?

2006-03-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

Everything.... sudden death... any oxygen tank? didnt noe it wasnt interesting, memoriable and record-able at all...... Its so fascinating tat u can realise it now only... are u a fool? u dun need a alarm nor a gong but just ........WAKE UP.....

Super Woman

2006-03-03T05:32:00.000-08:00

This is a song that i have been listening... got two kinds of version.. chinese first... den i realise the original song was actually a english song... been listening to it all along.... jus find it very nice... or reminds me of another thing when the word superwoman crosses my mind... during secondary sch... when one of my fren had a crush on this guy and his name is SW... so we gave him a name call superwoman.... jus part and parcel of the life and joke we share in our secondary school days... shouting here and there for the person u like and u have crush on....
Superwoman... are all woman super ? are all women a superwoman? does every woman's success lies a superman? does every man truly support the woman in everything they do... does every man tell the truth.... alright back to woman.... are all woman super.... are all woman strong? sometimes, no matter how strong a person could be... no matter how tears are able to control... there are bound to be the weakest side of a person.... if every woman is a superwoman.... there wun be a man in the world.... does woman reali need a superman? woman jus need a man... a man whom she can trust on... a man who can rely her life and put her love on him forever .......
Holiday.... i jus wanna go for a holiday.... to be out of singapore... to a place that i can enjoy with the wind, stars and moon.... walking slowly down the beach.... enjoying the cooling breeze and the waves ..... grant my wish can.... i am feeling too tire already.... energy level is 0%..... am i still carry on playing?.... the game is not easy at all.... not fun.... moreover, i nv tot it was only a game....
alright... gonna find a game to play now... tis is wad i wan now ...

It Travels...

2006-02-19T08:55:00.000-08:00

When u are feeling in pain... it affects all other area... wad i mean is my tooth... after tightening it ... its still the same pain i am having.... had potato today..bought KFC one to eat.. some more its medium size and i finished it up .... felt so fat after eating it.. so so so.... went for a run after that.... run and run and run..... sweat it all out.... will there be a day that i can run and run till it wun stop me from stopping? i wish i could and then i could run till i could fly up high to the sky and become a fairy.... i noe i toking rubbish liao.... muz be my headache that is killing me... its not coz of study but coz of the braces.... haiz... if plus study stress.... i think i gonna explode liao .. so dun be surprise if u see news of bukit panjang an area call senja suddenly got something exploded... gotta go get some rest.. reali cannot take it liao.. nitez everyone..takecare and drink more water...

PainfuL yEt not Noticeable.

2006-02-18T07:53:00.000-08:00

Its been a tiring day for me despite not doing much stuff.... was caused the torture i had in the morning that caused the day or rather the coming weekend to be miserable... if u were to place one can or a dozen of abalone, i would not be able to chew at all... simply coz my braces were tighten once again.. and its reali painful tis time round... after having breakfast b4 visiting dental.. after which i jus had a large milo from mac donald... at nite only at porriage.. rite now, jus wanna slp.. coz am feeling hungry again and i wish i could eat maggi mee, eat biscuit, eat chicken wing.... but i think i noe wad i can eat tml le... will update again.. guess guess guess... Such a pain, the dentist will not be able to noe... he only noes how to tighten it hard till u think its painful den its useful.... agree... sound so rhyme... i can go write poems liao... alright..not crapping anymore... jus too restlesss to talk but to type in front of my lappy and lying on bed .... takecare frenz and hope to see everyone soon... misses each and every single one of u..... Takecare.... Nitez ... Sweet Dreamz.....

Mentoring Session

2006-02-16T03:15:00.000-08:00

Hmm, went for mentoring today for the last session of the semester.. so fast.. one semester passed again... will gotta wait for weeks later to see the kids jumping up and down again... today was so happy coz beckham and alan were so good and guai... they reali very guai... they cooked for me .... of coz is fake la...
After mentoring, headed home... was raining heavily all of a sudden... reached interchange and took LRT... but still got drench coz no shelter while crossing the road... suddenly have the urge to walk home and walk in the rain... will get sick? but still got drench abit....
oh ya, bought JJ album liao.. have been playing whole day through... love the song call sarang heyo... noe wad it means.... well, still got many many more songs... its speaks alot of feelings... while u are looking and reading the lyrics... ur tears can actually triggle down... is it true.... dunnoe.... thats for u to buy the ablum and u will noe the answers... quick go buy ya...

Tots to Share... Whats uR?

2006-02-12T02:44:00.000-08:00

Here is a mail that i open and wanna share:

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible? Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them? Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:I love you, Sorry and help me

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

What are my thoughts? i dunnoe.... appears strong are the real weakest person? how far can we agree to this sentence.... how many pple would be able to know wad ur feelings are now especially when u are someone who is always bringing a cheerful side and not showing the real emotional view? u cannot expect all to know... but a few do?

Saying I love you, Sorry and help me is hard? is there pple who says it out without feeling it? how would the other party react if u do not mean wad u were saying... dun hurt someone who u think its easy to hurt on.... dun say sorry if u do not mean to apologise.. dun accept the help if u dun mean to help. if u are one of those, pls vanish in this world... you express ur love to someone coz u love the person, u wan to bring the light, hope and life to the person and not to bring misery to him or her....

Writing is better den saying face to face? it can be true at certain times but to certain things, to wad i think, i wanna it to be a face to face talk... wad for avoiding it when u wanna say.... jus speak up, and face it... if i am ready to face it, why arnt you... yes, maybe writing can write lotsa of ur feelings but i rmb once someone told me by saying it face to face will melts a person's heart if u are speaking ur feelings to someone you love... but what if its something bad? something tat no one wishes to hear? dun u think it will be a face to face thing... face it up and dun let it drag... if u were to live today and not tml, y not say now... you nv noe when ur heart says i am dead...

A Success... Was iT?

2006-02-11T03:09:00.000-08:00

Handover ceremony has finally ended... after we committees contacting so many ppl, we still end up having so few pple attending it.. was so disappointed... why is it that ppl promise to come and last min backed up.. i reali dun understand... pls spare a tot for the pple organising it.. yes, it may not be important to u but its an event for everyone to get together.. was kinda speechless when alot of pple didnt turn up... including mrs choo... nevertheless, we still have to carry out the event even if its jus 5pple, 10 pple.... we had presentation first, follow which is the refreshment thing... coz wanna have games instead but was worry that the food will turn cold and of coz some pple actually went to take the cup and drink.,.. oh my god, where is their manners when they are not from mentoring... go reflect yourself pls... the food was more den enough although we still gotta give up some of it. after which we had games, i love the game part the most... it reali makes me forget everything and enjoy myself to the fullest.. reali.. was so fun and funny.... but due time constraint, gotta end early den headed off to the handover ceremony. ya, its the main part of the day... upon taking over the position, the load is handed over and its the responsibilities of us, the batch of new coms to take over, to bring a new look of BP mentoring, bringing a new design.... i hope to bring the best of everything i can to contribute to mentoring, making it a no regret thing.... jus like i was in nhss dance society, i wan the me and now the same me once again... dun pull be back... please.. u pull me once and i have fought real hard to find it back....

我累了

2006-02-09T06:40:00.000-08:00

Tml is the handover ceremony and i really hope everything will be fine... if not, i reali cannot take it... a brain can take up tis level and the level cannot exceeds it... is it tat u choose tis thing and u gotta give up on the other thing.. is it going to happen.... is it fair? strong? how strong can one be.... even a metal melts... wad abt a heart, it doesnt melt, its bleeds tremendously.... Everything that affects u affects ur heart eventually.... if i were to collaspe one day, who will be there.... 我累了，我真的累了吗?

Its goNe... JiNGz...

2006-02-07T06:00:00.000-08:00

Sometimes listening to songs.. and toking abt it.. i have been repeating the songs for past few days and nites... what song would it be... songs that suits a person feeling... and this feelings would be able to describe... i shall carry on listening till now...
i jus had my blaw presentation..and i realise i have been making tis mistake all along... i have been saying ok all this while without myself knowing it... but i noe i said alot of times in CM presentation.... i knew it.. i knew things will corp up coz it jus wasnt me in the presentation... where is me... is it gone...

Updating...

2006-01-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i can sit down and start blogging all my feelings rite now... firstly, i simply cannot take it on the BUSH which my fren has describe to me... wad rite does he has to change the rule since he took over it... i simple cannot take it.. and he is reali someone whom everyone hates him..... including the teachers... but not the student, the current students,coz he is a po xian.... someone who hopes to have more $$ into his pocket... someone who only cares for his interest and not the more respectable pple.... which is the teachers,... dun let me see u in the street, i will throw all the smelly eggs on u.... u have offended each and every single graduated us especially someone who was once in dance... keke... why am i bringing up all tis all of a sudden... my fren told me the celebration was not happening... not much pple went back Coz YOU are the cause of it... better leave asap... and diminished at the world rite now.... let someone who is more reputable to take over...
Well, shall not let tis creature spoil my new yr eve...
lets update on my school life... many things been happening... i was rather unhappy today.. but i force myself to look on the bright side and not to bother over it even though its still abit unhappy.... not angry ba... but sometime i jus dun understand. but who understand such feelings.... pls do spare a thought for us la.... tis is the 21st century ... i better dun say more if not it gonna spoilt my mood again. i wanna be a happy one... so be happy den...
oh my god, i rmb again that ramesh have yet to send me the list.. oh my god... when is he sending me the name list... i gotta call them during CNY? no ... cannot la... btw, he is the president or rather the commandor... lol...
another thing that i have been wanting to blog... it is regarding myself... i got an award, a zest award.... keke... wad is it exactly.... is there a real definition... i oso not too sure.. but reali thanks to my beloved classmates of those who have voted for me... i was reali shocked to hear my name coz i believe in the class, there are pple who are more outstanding den me deserving it... reali... i was tinking that all along...
in less den 24hrs, it Chinese new year liao... oh my god... so many things gonna happen.. so many things gonna go... some places i wanna go, some i do not wanna go.... how... who is going to help me... haha... bi nian? lol.... but i believe there is one place that i wanna go till now... but now... do i still yearn to go there.. i reali dunnoe.. give me an ans pls..
i cut my hair yest.. and some said i look like ah gon... oh my god, is it that tu tu... faintz... but no matter wad, i already cut liao.. only way to solve it is to cut botak.. keke.. which is abit impossible... keke...

Coughing Like MAd

2006-01-24T01:45:00.000-08:00

I jus got home... keke.. from? from school la.. i think i am spending more time in school den at home liao.. so tire after starring at the lappy for more den 3hrs... but was glad that the effort did not gone down the drain. was doing EC with fish and the rest, we decided to redo everything.... keke... tml presentation, still haven prepared anything.. yawn... save me.... keke ... now going to bath liao... shall update once again in coming week.. coz reali alot of things gotta settle...

The phohia that nv fades..

2006-01-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

I am feeling tire.. super tire... but have yet to go to slp despite its midnite liao and gotta wake up at 6plus in the morning... still having many tots here and there... it wasnt me at all jus now.... coz it reminds me of it.... it still cant be erase off.... i was so stone at one second and jus lost of words and confidence....What am i doing... oh my god... reali not me... wake up..... stop letting it to be your blocking way... u have succeed as far as u noe and believe it....

Hmm... tiMe Flies..

2006-01-05T07:12:00.000-08:00

haha... today spent half the day doing project in school... weather been very bad lately but still i nv bring umbrella... have yet to enjoy the moment in the rain..... can be fun... or rather i tried once.. eh... when huh... tink is last week ba.. went to buy some stuffs den didnt expect to rain all of a sudden... den ran..but cannot run.. coz my slippers kept falling off... luckily no pple saw it... keke.. if got.. i wun mind a yandao come shelther me .... keke... jk la... moreover i was super wet lor... so instead of running, i decided to walk instead... keke..
Hmm, today had vegetarian food in the morning as breakfast... keke.. super nice lor.. coz its a new stall at my house coffee shop... hmm, i simply love the ingredients they cooked... plain and nice... jus nice... keke... second time eating it... bet i will continue to support it.. unless it dun go expensive by selling me little and little... den i will walk pass the stall and say so expensive i dun wan to buy liao despite its nice.. keke. jk la... but serious ma... if ur food is nice and is selling more and more expensive and the servings is lesser den the first time... its way too much... if u wan more pple to buy from u and prevents u from closing ur stall.. u shld be doing biz in a reasonable way... keke... agree... i agree... i always ask my mum, y those pple wanna still sell when their food is not edible... oh my god... if u have come across awful food, i guess u will feel the same... dun spoil singapore image... i cant stand some pple setting up stalls when their food is simply not nice.. not that i am fussy over food... but u pay for it.. meaning u hoping to get a good food ma...
talking abt complains here and there... it reminds me of something... i was on the train the other day, heading down to meet frenz at bugis... at the train, i was standing near the window there and there were three guys standing in front of me... a three IRRITATING guys... when i hear them open their mouth, i simply jus blast my radio to full... no matter how loud it is... i jus wanna close my peaceful ears... u cant change tis thing... u jus cant change it... its the way it is and i am very persistant with it... get off my sight and go back to where u are.. u dun belong here... u have a place and go to where u were born... whenever i brings tis topic up, its boiling me till head... its jus reminds me whenever they appears and i hold back to it.... learn to forgive and forget? ..... i can do it for anything BUT not for tis...
let me cool down for 10seconds... 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10....

ok.. i am ok liao
back to other thing.. today went to school do project... we went to atrium to do... hoping to do as many as we can.. keke... stared at lappy whole afternoon.. eyes now kinda tire liao... keke.. hmm, wanching arh, wanching... today was glad that she said she wanna go see doc, and have a x-ray but when she returns to sch... haha... she didnt.... alamak.... coz her dad was persistant over chinese methods ba... tis kind of thing cant blame one... one has its own view... muz change perhaps muz wait till all western doc shake hands with chinese doc... keke... jk la... but hearing from her that it getting much better as the doc got so call pull the finger... got pull better den nv pull rite.. keke... kk... dun crap liao... serious case... keke... hope she will recover soon... after project , headed down to westmall despite no much food for me to eat... decided to have KFC in the end.. lol .... the wad sweet and spicy sauce.. aiyo.. doesnt go well with the chicken lor.. pls dun eat the sauce... keke... eat with other things still can la.. the chicken.. eh... better not.. keke...

Kkk... Here's my update...

2006-01-03T23:25:00.000-08:00

Hmm... halo everyone... is everyone ok with life? hmm, its 2006... the 4th day of 2006....so fast... reaching new year soon.. taking hong bao soon... taking pineapple soon.... taking many many food soon.. but think alot of things if i wanna eat... gotta eat fast den drink water... kekek... if u noe me.. u will noe wad i am trying to say.. keke...
The new yr eve in 2005... hmm, how happening is it? ok only ba... was expecting to be higher den that...but.... certain plans corps up... haiz... if not will be perfect... for me la... keke.. coz tis time round, its the biggest number of pple turning up and alot of them were surprise those nv see b4 came that day... keke... power ba... manage to fish up so many pple that everyone of us had lost contact with....great seeing them... especially shan... nv expect to see her.. coz she said she cant make it liao..den frenz saw her at basement den drag her up to meet us.. but she join us for countdown coz she super tire liao... keke .. so we forgive her.. we were standing at mac outside for more den an hr to tok.. lol... is there no sits for us? keke... was intending to head down to esplanade de...but end up at kopitam.. heng.. the countdown to 2006 wasnt there... we went to holland village instead... keke.. took plane there... not bad hor... oops... keke..
i simple dun understand why poly is having test during the festive mood... its so irritating lor... simply no mood to study de... haiz.... sometimes if things were turn the other way, how will it be like.... will i be enjoying now... having fun ? u choose the path and u gotta decide it le....
2006 is here..wad everyone resolution? me? keke.... many many... i want everything.... keke..... nth is perfect in tis world...

Lost... The world isnt Fill with me

2005-12-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

What is happening... i felt so lost today... it jus wasnt me... can pls kick me away from this world.. somehow i jus wanna live far far away..... can i leave the world and find the true me..... where is me.... who am i .... i wan .. i miss my grandma... all of a sudden.... where is she... tell me .... who am i ..... the world is no longer filled.......... its jus wasnt me.....

Pain arh....

2005-12-06T01:30:00.000-08:00

haha.. my blogging recently is keep pain here and there but its all with my mouth.. tis time round is ucler.. so pain... pain pain pain arh..... now feeling abit sore throat ...dunnoe is it coz i drank the avocado that the uncle mix together with the seed.... first time drink until so jialat...
Tonite new show liao.. last nite Tong Xin Yuan ending was stuuuupid.... haha.... that da qiu like tat fall liao ... nv say wad happen.... aiyo... wad a lousely story writer..... lucky he nv won but he won coz he won the story for You Fu.... y one can write so good the other cant.... alamak.... aiya... go bath liao... wheather so hot.... cannot tahan,.... yawn,....

Haiz... so Suai again...

2005-12-04T01:45:00.000-08:00

Went to suntec with mum after accompanying her to buy some stuff.... went to adidas shop and was carrying with hope hoping to find a jacket that i like.. indeed i found one... a pink colour one... reali extremely nice.... there were two types of colours , one pink and the other one is with blue and white.. i like both but would prefer that pink one... try and try till i wanna ask for a new one... sry there is no new one... oh my god... again this kind of thing happen... shit.... i reali got the urge to take the pink colour that is on display coz i reali like it alot.. but there were some black patches on it... thinking and consoling that it will remove off the stain after washing it....but in the end, i didnt buy coz it jus wasnt worth it to buy something that is dirty and had to wash again especially when its on display.... haiz.... gotta say bye to it again.. when can i get to find one that i reali like .....

PaiN....

2005-11-28T18:51:00.000-08:00

Oh my god, its killing me to death... but i am still alive la.... extracting two tooth at one go, am i brave as wad the nurse said? haha... i tot everyone is the same... at first, the dentist only extracted one for me... but to save my trouble from going back again, i decided to say, go ahead and extract the 2nd one... the injection part is the one that i feared most... coz needle lei... into gum lei.... wa...... eeeeeeee... pain.... but extraction part... aiyo... the nurse hold my head to prevent me from shaking while using something big and thick to extract it out... can imagine? eeeeeee..... den the dentist still ask wan to change colour... alamak... i already bleeding like hell, still ask me wad colour i wan... wan multi colour oso not a prob... i choose blue in the end... the whole mouth was like dunnoe wad... u shld try using a hammer and knock my mouth... no feeling de... haha... thinking back... eeeee.... so ugly... putting two cotton in the mouth like being box by someone like tat... i tok to mum after that, she was so shocked that i extracted two.. shock meh... haiz.... faster extract oso better la... take all the pain at one go.... two days liao.. still pain... try having panadol... but refrain from eating too much... keep rubbing oil on my cheek... thats the most happening to me so far ba.... bet none of my 4/5 buddies noe abt it... except for one that i have told.. haha.... keep the secret first... wanna give them the surprise the next time we meet...
i go watch tv liao... while waiting for dinner.... oh ya, paiseh for jus now to fish, mel and wendy coz i gotta bring the food home first as uncle is at home... so gotta leave without going up with u gals.... sry...

The Day Has Started

2005-11-16T21:35:00.000-08:00

Its the day... the day that i have decided since long ago and it has happened in less den 24hrs.... feelings? i really dunnoe wad to say... too lost for words... the moment i sees it... i feel like crying out.... i reali do... at times, but i hold back.... it may seems perfect and nothing... but certain things had to overcome it.... perhaps wad i will be missing and putting aside is you, my beloved cam... guess u can rest for the time being... all of a sudden, i felt so empty.. reali empty.. i dun dare to think tml... all of a sudden, i wish i am stuck at home everyday........ till the day arrives....
i guess i jus need time for it...thats all......

Another Week Is Gone

2005-11-11T20:26:00.000-08:00

Well, another weekend is coming soon.... so fast..... but life seems to be not much of a happening though certain things are strange at time.... what will happen in the next second? bird flu? no one knows... even myself... wad am i thinking now? my mind is empty now... too tire to think at times... there are many things that it would be best that u dun think too much.. live it to the fullest.... there one things i believe its gonna to change soon.... and it is starting already... the process maybe tough.. but i choose it... and i gotta face it.... be there for me?
well, well, well,.... oh ya... another thing that i wanna blog about... after every mentoring.. i always have many tots.... Alan arh, alan... my dear Alan.... y u so quiet and dun tok de.... each time i come and visit u, u always bound to have injuries.... y lei.... ur skin sensitive huh.... pls takecare of urself ya... and PLEASE dun ignore me lei.... you may not noe but each time u ignore me, my heart really aches alot... am i a bad mentor? kids can be showing bad mood at times... tis gotta understand... maybe coz they wanna have more attention on them... Beckham yesterday was very good... he was like jumping into the sky...
Life.... life... life.... there's so many ups and down.... so tire... give me a break........ i told fish yest that i wanna go holiday.... reali i want to escape and get free out of here.......... wad if one day u drink something or eat something and the next day you have totally lose ur memory? will it be good? will you wanna lead a new life?

1st Day....

2005-10-31T21:49:00.000-08:00

Wow... its the first day of school once again... looking forward to seeing so many frenz.... miss them all.... many things changed... the co-hop shop... the bus stop which will be ready in april 06 and wad else... oh ya.. i saw henry... oh my god, wad happened to u.... u ate slim 10? extrim? or u went to cut ur fats away... keke.... reali slim down alot... teach me how lei.... i am gaining more weight ever since the start of my attachment.... time to lose it all away..... after lecture, went to have lunch with fish, xin and aaron.... den had a good chat with fish over our attachment happenings here and there.... after accompanying me to pass time, i headed down to cck for dental checkup..... den back home to watch tv... there goes another day.... racking my brain hard now... planning for a gathering is tough now... especially for everyone to gather back..... hmm.... how shld i arrange.... time is so tight..... jus wish the time could stop... hahaa.......

Its been a long time

2005-10-23T23:27:00.000-07:00

well... time reali flies... attachment is finishing soon... since the start of this holiday, i have yet to do any blogging.... am i busy? no ba... jus that i have many things to blog till at times u may not noe where to start off with.... but life still gotta carry on no matter wad happens and how tough is going to be for u to face ahead... its a matter of how strong u are going to face it....... life is nv fair in this world... u cant expect everything to be the way u wan it to be....
quite bothered by some stuffs... hoping that wad i heard wasnt true at all... but at times, gotta accept it..but i hope to change it... coz i dun wan to see it continuing like this... i cant be there forever but i am willing to share the feelings..... let it go if u reali dun wan it... dun let the unhappy scene to happen.... none of us want to see that... its the time that its been built up.... dun let it be tarish.... sometimes its good to remain as frenz forever den not seeing one another coz of unhappiness..... if its urs, it will be... learn to let it go easily and live ahead..... everyone ard u has given the advice and warning.... u choose not to listen... y.... we reali dun wan to see something happen in time to come... find someone who loves u and u love her as much as she does...
well, school life is starting soon... wads life going to be like... y not tok abt my attachment? is it fun? well, i reali dunnoe how to describe it.... can be boring and at time... simply dun understand the way things is been handle...... one more week, cherishing the time i have with frenz i know and the food over there... the work?

I wish

2005-09-18T10:16:00.000-07:00

I wish i heard it wrongly and it wasnt wad i rmb it was being said... coz its wuldnt be nice at aLL..... AT ALL......... speechless moment............... certainly cant believe it ............. jus wanna scream my hearts out and said i am NOT............... we went through ups and down....... the story and chemistry exists......... its not manufactured and sell it away.....................................................

Why...what am i doing

2005-09-14T17:24:00.000-07:00

I simply hate myself.... why is it happening to me.... be there for me pls.... pls..... where are you... i am too tire to tok.. to do anything ..... why am i facing this..... tears simply trigger down as easy as it can be.... facing in front of the com... drowning myself to it.... i jus hope things turn out to be better..... at a moment this can happen, the other moment... whyyyyyyy............. i jus wish to be alone for now......... inner side of me is full of shattered cells, tears.... try smashing a glass and how painful it can be is how painful my heart will lead to.....

Life is nv smooth

2005-09-02T18:33:00.000-07:00

While waiting for dinner.... i jus suddenly feel so mind blank...sometime certain things i jus dislike it.. feeling so unhappy all of a sudden... makes me feel like an idiot..... reminds me of certain things... if u get it, u will feel happy but when it left over there, u treat it like a piece of shit... yucks... y cant pple jus cherish the pple around u .... dun take full advantage.... dun take things for granted.... spare a tot for other's too.... jus too speechless to say anything... maybe coz i jus woke up ba...........

Tire...Tire..sleep...

2005-08-24T18:33:00.000-07:00

Its another day gone..saying good bye.... saying halo to study week soon.. reali soon.. but me? still slacking.... feeling so tire ever since the start of poly life... so many projects and assignment.. nv ending process.....same words.. GIve me a BREAk.... dying soon...
Got up at 9am plus but reali reluctant to get up...when was the last time i get to slp till late late without having projects and work on my mind lei?? hmm... reali cant tink of the last time i had tis kind of feeling.... guess shld be during my three mths course ba.... that period reali slacker.. go orchard and chilled... and slp after school.. watch tv whole day... oh my god...that time was missing the school life where there are homewk but now is missing the times that i have not enough slp and time to rest... maybe during the 3mths i was so slacking might be coz certain things were happening that moment and caused alot of unhappiness during that period... it shld be the worst period of time that i ever have to endured and fight till today that i have it and cherished it.
haha... i am suppose to tok abt today... but why bring back the unhappiness? hmm, today during IEF, miss wong was so happy lei... haha... also dunnoe why... keke.. she keep toking abt chicken..her favourite and she ate SNAKE?? oh my god.. i faint if i were her... so yucks.... keke... i am reali curious how miss wong looks when she was slim and young.... coz too me, i think her eyes are attractive lei... tis is wad i think.. her complexion is oso well maintian... haha... who say fat pple are ugly... tis is a false and totally wrong statement... they have the beauty too... i was once fat and its reali fat lor... and i know the feeling of pple saying u fat... its isnt good at all.. miss wong is reali one who is happy go lucky.... after lesson, we had lunch and went for AAA... that lecturer... oh my god.. reali joker... wonder if she is vidhya's mum... keke.. joking only.. no offence... keke... hmm, the way she tok and action... haha.. make me laugh all the all through... keke....
After school, went to trim eyebrown with fish at beauty world... coz tml lesson la... so ma fan... advise us go trim to shape our eyebrown bettter... aiyo..... caused some bleeding... pain... but overall ok... service not bad.. keke. ... after that, meet dar at plaza... went for a walk only dan bought ice-cream that he recommended that its reali nice... oh my god, i m gaining weight and now ask me eat ice-cream... hmm, is it that nice? ok.. i shall try it after dinner.... dan i shall see i wanna buy other flavours not... keke.. go bath liao.... takecare frenz

Blood Pressure is EXTREMELY HIGH...

2005-08-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

What is happening..... what is going on.. can anyone tell me.... i am waiting for my mail to work since 10pm... and i have been hearing from frenz telling me where i posted which i myself dun even noe... pls lor , its 7th, not funny.... stop scaring people... i know my mood now is totally bad... thats is y i rather vent my anger over here dan on my fren... coz the feeling is nv good... y vent anger on frenz... do u noe how hurting it is... is it wrong to show concern over it.... fine, if so, i dun tok so much.... i nv experience it b4 so hurting..... not the first time having such attitude liao... reali hurting to cause my brain cells bursting anytime... slient is the best policy rite now...

If i didnt meet my fren today, today will be the worst day i ever have... boiling and boiling ..worse dan a kettle boiling.... since morning 9am... unhappiness starting building up till 11am increasing... after 1pm worse still. ....... eeeeeeeeeeeee........i hate tis kind of process....... cant everyone jus stay happy and positive everyday??? keep clam.. smile and smile. think of happy things.... clam clam clam......

How much is Enough

2005-08-20T18:43:00.000-07:00

i had it.... i am too tire to tok abt it.... i am a human being too.... not a robot.... jus dislike things.... i dun wanna hate...coz u will end up getting tire...... i have done to the full extent.... how much more is required..... GIVE ME A BREAK..... i simply dun understand.... Why....

Its a Piece of Shit

2005-08-19T20:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Superstar results was out... can u believe it? junyang is out... oh my god... gosh... wads is this ..... he has such good voice and looks in him... he shed tears... so sad.... glad that kelly got in... if not superstar is not superstar ... it is lously mood.... lol....
jus had my dinner not long ago.. listening to MD now... saying this gal hating this guy.. regreting knowing him.... sometimes in life, i think dun have any regret coz u choose to have it .... jus like frenz, u dun regret to have any of them but a matter of how long it will last... pple always say frenz are always there for you.... what true frenz reali are? how u know they are ur true frenz.... have u found ur true frenz? how true is true?
My mind is filled with ECD.... gosh..... dun wanna tok abt it.... nv ending stuff.....dunnoe wad to blog... jus too shit to blog anything.... tata....

FMS Presentation

2005-08-16T12:42:00.000-07:00

Keke.... now in fms class... while huiqi is presenting.. i m here blogging... she is toking about effects on textile industry now... got listen... we were the first to present... grammer errors made and also when my turn to present, oh my god, tutor stop me and talk about the slides being too wordy.. hmm, after everything, he returned our project, well, we got a B... hmm, he is indeed very good tutor... effort put in was ok only... not as tedious as IEF.. reminds me of nitemares lor... keke.... 1240pm liao... still haven end... hungry hungry...thirsty thirsty.... keke

Alan is so wonderful.... kids are simply great

2005-08-04T12:53:00.000-07:00

My days always get brightens up whenever i go for mentoring... i may not noe wad will be happening to the kids mood. they may be unhappy, throwing temper or even scold u... but u jus have the urge to look forward and talk and play with them. Oh gosh, luckily, thanks to cheryl's packets of sweet. if not alan is not slaughter me... he told me that i promise to buy him sweet... did i? i think i m getting more and more forgetful.. hmm, next week, he wans more... ok.. tis time round i will promise my words... more sweets for him... but not more till that he get toothache ba... hmm, beckham today oso very cute... finally got him to laugh.. or else always show that angry face... so scary... laugh so cute... shld have long ago laugh liao ma.. keke... he is someone who need more attention and he will be ok... kids are like that.. nv neglect anyone of them... kekek... got home and watch superstar... kelly's voice is so powerful... hope she gets into the final... she has the superstar look including junyang... both of them are perfect... go all the way... jia you.....

Anger do disappear...

2005-08-03T22:26:00.000-07:00

Well, finally, IEF presentation is gone.... its completed... at 1240pm at level 3 room 13.... the place filled with water droplets from the air con.... so distracting.... if u too scare and thirsty, wad u can do is try drinking it... how it taste dun ask me.... try urself... how shld i describe my feelings? i oso dunnoe... there was a moment of unhappiness.... and anger? oso dunnoe.... jus feeling stress ba.... why is project forever existing.... its tiring.... i need a break.... a break to enjoy life and slp and play and eat and watch movies and tv and time to accompany and chat with love ones..... but its jus seems time passes so fast and now its wednesday.... wad is this.... arrggg.g.......cant think now... gtg chiong for fms liao... kinda feeling cold and hot now... whole body feeling so restless.... a sign that i m going to fall sick? oh my god..... faint.....

What happen... aiyo

2005-08-01T23:02:00.000-07:00

got up today early in the morning for earliest tutorial, ECD... when woke up, feeling chest like uncomfortable... when i was abt to brush my teeth, i vomited... oso dunnoe y... dan follow by stomachache.. i so worry cant go sch... and worry late for sch... after drinking milo, i vomited again... when abt to go out, went toilet again.... its already 810am liao... i walk and run abit... glad that i m able to catch up with the next bus.... ate some sweet and felt somehow better liao...
properly haven been having enough slp ba... feeling so tire and tire tire..... give me a break.....

keke... No regrets at aLL

2005-07-28T22:15:00.000-07:00

Keke...can say i rather enjoy my day today... i did not regret my decision somehow.... i m glad that it makes my day seeing them so enjoy today... who are they? all the kids at melrose... at first, was rather bad coz only got five mentors went and four cant make it... wonder wad happen especially the two year 1 students... to me, if u cant go, it muz be reali something serious... coz i think that, can u spare a thought for the kids u are in charge of... how will they feel when they know the rest of the big brother and sisters came but not the one taking and playing with u... when this thought strikes me... i made my decision firmly that i will go mentoring... coz i wanna take the responsibility and the promise i had for alan.. my mentee...
When i got there, alan wasnt in a good mood, he was running here and there saying i dun wanna fren u anymore, i tell my mummy come and beat u... coz u are naughty.. oh my god.... he said all tis... i felt so shocked.. was it coz i didnt come for the past two weeks coz of test... dan thats y he tot i nv come for so long.... i took a long time running here and there... like chicken hen catching the chicks... keke... funny hor.... i nv give up no matter how he scold or shout at me.... he even pull fish and mine hair... aiyo.. so pain.... abit naughty la.. but all kids are cute at al times... its jus tat all kids need the attention at all times... nv neglect them... huixian very cute too, she suddenly wanna tie and do my hair... keke... reminds me of my cousins last time... she was about to use rubber band to tie my hair and i was abt to like oh my god.. keke.. luckily i got rubber band ... if not i will be like barbie doll, having a hard time pulling the rubber band out... keke..
dan when going home, i saw tis cute guy... his eye lashes..... oh my god.... super long and eyes so attractive... so cute... he was standing there like very scare like that... i ask him wads his name dan he nv ans me.. i took a fews time asking dan he finally ans... Zack.. keke if i rmb correctly... he was reali scare.. but not of me coz his car got confiscated by the incharge dan scare coz it was his mum who gave him.... muz be reali precious.. dan i tell him... dun worry, u knock the door and say nicely to the incharge and tell her next time u wun dare to play or wad.... i oso dunnoe y cant play car... oso not real car ma... haha.... keke...Now waiting for the Superstar results.... who will be in and out lei? we will know in less dan 2hrs time... keke..

Sigh... Life is always like that...

2005-07-27T17:16:00.000-07:00

In life, there are always ups and down... you cant expect everything to run smoothly for u and pple around you.... sometimes u bother too much, u will find that pple thinks u are busybody... but when u dun wanna bother, pple will say u always hack care... what the problem... why am i saying this? jus always of thoughs and feeling on my mind now... thats y i m here blogging...

feeling kinnda sad too... a fren of mine upon knowing that i had a marks higher dan said dun wanna talk to me liao.... do u know how hurting that could be... before hand i was feeling worry and scare that i might fail too... its reali that i m reali scare... it kinda a luck that i pass... i didnt affirm that i will score this marks and i didnt show off at all or wad.... wads is wrong.... i feel sad too when i know that u didnt do well.... can someone bothers to spare a though for me.... the sentence jus bothers in my mind now... maybe i shld think in a way that its a joke but it still hurts ba....

haiz.....

2005-07-27T01:16:00.000-07:00

i reali dunnoe wad u are thinking anymore.... i cant get in.... i cant enter it....... the world isnt the same anymore..... i m too tire to think... had only 3hrs plus of slp last nite... not slping now though, but something more important to be done..... nitez....... miss ya........

Tire but relax..now stress

2005-07-24T21:24:00.000-07:00

Its a sunday and its going to get over soon in less dan 6 hours... hmm, got up at 11am today... late hor coz reali didnt had good slp for long long time liao... when woke up, went to have lunch plus breakfast with family... brother lazy so he choose not to work though its his off day... hmm, dan we went amoy street and ate kway chap... so nice... so delicious... always had 1 and half bowl of kway chap... not i greedy but the soup and the kway tiao is reali nice.... plus i didnt have my breakfast and plus i had a nitemare last nite.. haha... dreamt that i lost my bag... inside got alot of stuffs.... so scare.... had quite a few bad dreamz ba.... but hope its jus that all my stress are causing it and not gonna happen in real... dan as usual, order sugar cane jucie with lime in it.. nice... dan dad went to order ginger tea.... at first my reaction was like yucks but it taste not bad lei... not jus pure ginger but together with milk.... u noe, tea with milk... yup.. with ginger in it... not bad...can drink.... if wan, frenz we go next time together and eat and eat... nice nice... dan after that wanna go tampiness there to shop but brother over shoot to changi airport... oh my god... did he bought any tickets? alamak... dan in the end we went to marina there , went to shop parkway parade... wanna buy formal wear... but all not nice, no my size , dun have the colour i like... aiyo... tis is wad u call great singapore sales ba.... forever like that... good stuffs always bye bye.... hmm, dan i finally caught a pair of slippers ba.... bought it for the sake of buying coz i got no decent slippers to school.... wear another pair, mum say too simple... like not student... lol.... keke... dan at 5plus... all too tire to walk liao dan wanna go liao... so lously... not like me still endu... but i oso tire liao coz knee pain... oso dunnoe y... mum say me... she pain i oso pain... muz be i old liao... noooooo. i still 18 hor... keke... ok la... 19 lor...... dan went to redhill for dinner... had sting ray, prawn mee, satay and oyster egg... nice ... all very nice.... yummy.... but very full... if not, i wuld have order more stuff to eat and enjoy....... keke.... after that ,wad else??? shop? no la..... went home liao... now stressing...... presentation... IEF..... arrgggggg....y ief..........

Back again...

2005-07-24T00:48:00.000-07:00

i am back again to blog... in less dan 2hours...... dunnoe.... jus read some stuffs.... felt abit sad..... or a sense of jealously happening...... well... perhaps lies with problem that i care too much..... that it turns into jealously...... i wanna forget it and stay positive...but somehow the prob hasnt solve....
Perhaps should start blogging wad i have done on a saturday weekend after Common test.... i woke up at 10plus...feeling so reluctant to wake up coz i jus feel like slping the whole time.... not whole day... but slp and slp.... no worries... how good... watched a movie.... at great world.... watched "The Island". if my frenz are reading my blog.... i strongly recommend each and everyone of u to go catch it.... maybe u may said different pple has got different taste but tis time round, its reali nice....

hmm...

2005-07-23T23:41:00.000-07:00

Common Test Ended.... wads next?? FUn??? no no no lor...... cant... plenty of stuffs to do .... wad stuff.... wad else.... projects, presentation ---- the most important and scary devil of all.... wad can i say???? stress again........ hate it man......... cant i jus lead a simple life and enjoy life in poly.....Common test maybe over... but it the results that i fear...i reali fear...... things have been pondering in my mind.... i m worry... and am bothered by it... i cherished it alot.... it just seems like we are drifting.... which i dun wanna it to happen... reali feel sad and bother over it...... i cherished tis friendship alot alot alot..... i cherished all the friendship ever since i made fren with anyone of u.... reali dun hope we are like strangers.... coz i do care and i reali do........ jus hope things will be fine......... FrenZ forEVER........

Oh my god...

2005-07-15T19:31:00.000-07:00

dear gosh, my tag board is spolit?? wad happened.....

Aching...

2005-07-15T15:22:00.000-07:00

My tooth is aching badly rite now... it hits badly to my head ...causing a rather bad headache....
haiz.... feeling so tire... can i jus slp forever.... i wish too.... but in slp, there are bound to have dreamz..including nitemare... which is one that no one wish to have it during their slp...
Rite now, i jus wish i can fly round the world and throw everything aside..coz after this week, next week, life is gonna be harder and harder.... projects and more project chasing.... will i have the time to rest? needless to say to enjoy.... WHo say Poly life are great................ dead

Arrrrrr chu..........

2005-07-12T18:23:00.000-07:00

Need rest..... need tissues...... Need time........................how much longer can i hold on to.......

What on my mind

2005-07-08T20:30:00.000-07:00

Today so sad..... coz JJ is coming to NP to open a mini concert at convention centre on 19th July... the day before IEF.. Wanna to watch it.... but no tickets too..... haiz....
Dunnoe wad else to say... my mind now is jus feel with stress... who understands??? who can understand..................

Did i ?

2005-07-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes once a decision is make and u have done it, its hard to turn it back.. . for the past few days, frenz from nz were asking me to join SCO for the upcoming yr of bAoc... my ans to all of them was... i do have the interest and committment to do so... if i join, means i will totally be devoted... but for some reason, i muz consider it twice before making the decision... coz does not wan the history to repeat again... there are certain things that i only tot of myself in doing wad i wanna do but not thinking how it will affect it... but still, its the feeling i have for tis round bAoc.... it will be diff if i join again..... the memorable part will still be tis time round, the first time..... when things happened around u each and every single day, u tends to be more mature and thinks better.... wad am i toking... do u understand...
haiz... guess i am jus super..... er no...... is EXTREMELY STRESs....... jus have the urge to knock my head against all the four walls every day.. feeling so like a mummy... dunnoe wad is all abt in school rite now..... jus noe that time passes fast and is super fast...
Got home at 9pm.... so tire..... feel like knocking onto bed and zzzzzzzz till forever ........ sometimes i dun understand... there is a limit to saying somethings, didnt tok back or even dun wana be angry was coz there's no need to and see no reason wasting the breathe or mad over it..... if u think its anti dan anti, but consider it, why would i have come.......... one word to comment... disappointing...........

I am SO TOUCHED and HAPPY

2005-06-27T23:06:00.000-07:00

I am so happy and yet touched coz I received something that i didnt expect it at all... its a birthday card..a belated birthday card.. though it came late.. but i am more happy dan anything... its a birthday card from my beloved TA23 friends.. its so sweet of them to give me a birthday card... I love the feeling most when everyone signs their names and wishes down on the same card together.... i had one during my secondary school... it was very well designed that time... dan it was from a bunch of dancers... but seriously, i love this card that i received today very very much.. i show it to my mum and even my mum said its nice... i stared at it for exactly 15mins without looking at the television... its reali reali sweet and nice and cute... gosh... i doubt i can slp tonite though i am feeling reali tire rite now... jus manage to log in online but cant sign in to msn at all... oh ya.. the card was from not only TA23 but together with Greg... thanks greg... you guys reali brought memories back to me again.. reminding me of the three days we spent during the orientation days. Without each and every single one of ur presence, i wouldnt have enjoyed it so much... appreciates all of the pple in TA23 who makes the effort to come for the three days.. i still rmb that on the third day, Ibrahim actually hurt his knee.. but he came despite that... was reali happy over it.. coz last day..dan reali hope to see all present... oh ya, rachel too.. she like at 3plus gotta go for her prize presentation at secondary sch.. but she came too... wow... miss TA23... u guys rocks... Love you lots... and once again, THanks Alot...

What is it aLL about..

2005-06-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

Got home half an hour liao.. wanna start off with the project stuff that i am suppose to do.. but still lacking of inspiration, therefore decided to blog though time is reali not enough... let alone to say to blog everyday... i rmb i always have the habit of writting diary every nite... indicating whats happening for the whole day itself... sometimes, i wish i were back in secondary sch, where i have the time to write diary and enjoy life... since primary sch till now, during june holidays were enjoying and enjoying... now? i jus wanna take a break tis week... but reali cant...workload especially project is getting heavier and heavier... can i jus escape for a week? a week will be enough... but once again... i cant...
Oh my god, today went sch, firstly saw fish with a pig leg... dan follow by paige... gosh, june is the month to fall down and become pig? although pig is super cute but also cant injured urself... anyway, joking only... jus pray hard that both of them gets better.... and can hop and jump around.... takecare ya the both of u....
Another thing that is keeping me in deep though and kinda upset over it.. its about the open house thing that henry asked me to take part... wanna join but when i told him i got attachment this coming holiday, its gonna affect the whole thing coz gotta attend meeting and so on... if i defer, will feel abit odd lei... playing trick with me.... when u wanna join something, purposely dun let u take part.. and when u dun, everything is pushing u to take part...its reali a great opportunity to get involve in such thing...all the factors that motivates me to join in any activities was all the memories that i got and captured during Dance... haiz haiz... it reminds me of Dance... my one and only Dance Society... NHSS Dance, I salute you.... Anyway, sorry henry... reali felt bad abt it... sorry...

Well, well, well

2005-06-14T23:01:00.000-07:00

Good evening... what am i suppose to blog... wow... its been a long time since i last blog... plenty of things in my mind... hmm, ever since the start of year 2, frenz around have been asking hows school... and my one and only reply is STRESS... why... who told me poly life is relaxing? bluff me de... i am so stress and tire every single day... i dun even understand a single thing and i am reli not lying.. tis is reali going to pull my mood down from the top of the dreamland mood to the hell version... its no joke..neither am i creating any lame jokes. Fish told me today that i should stop my lame jokes liao..coz no one is laughing it at all... ya... maybe i myself dun laugh over it too...
To be continue... too tire and stress le.... takecar frenz... nitez...

Why...

2005-06-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wish i am jus a little gal who knows only how to play eat and slp... coz i am getting more and more tire... more and more tire with school work... and many other little things... its only the start of second week in yr2 and i m already stressing.... i tried my best to do the question but i jus dun understand... i reali burst out immediately.... i reali dun noe wad to continue... nth but the amt of stress building up and up... goNe......

Tire.. Stress...Vexed... Give me a Break..

2005-05-27T20:58:00.000-07:00

Just got back from sch an hour plus... jus had dinner an hour ago, jus had my bath not long ago.. so many just... wads gonna happen next?
My second yr in poly jus started not long ago, in less dan a week.. the stress is getting heavier and heavier.. going burst out at any point of time.. i wish i can tell my heart out how much stress and the things i am vexed over to you.. its reali painful to appear happy and cheerful on the outside but inside, u were bothering by certain things. What m i doing.. i should be glad that sch started liao.. yes, i am... coz i get to meet my frenz up everyday, enjoy the meals with them, enjoy the fun and jokes with them.. but the lectures i have been attending for past 3days reali scare me off to heaven anytime... i even told my mum jus now the kind of lecture i had...
I met eileen today during my way to lecture.. so happy to see her.. coz we hardly get to meet in school de.. chatted with her for a while.. Saw cheryl yest at bukit panjang.. she was with liyu while i am with mum and brother... was buying the taiwan food to eat coz very hungry.. dan they called me... so happy to see cheryl.. as for liyu.. keke.. u know i know la... keke.. miss you too.. keke... Toking about frenz, i am reali glad to know alot of frenz in my poly life... especially all my closest buddies... No regret knowing u all, u all ROCKS and stay in my heart now and forever... but do anyone encounter frenz who know u le dan forget u coz they have new frenz.. new frenz that they actually forget the frenz they used to know.. i cant say i hate such pple who doesnt cherish frenship but rather i felt rather disappointed in it.. is friendship that fragile? i dun agree and totally disagree... listening to the song At the Beginning.. it reminds me alot of things, we all use to be stranger from the start... now we are joking and doing projects and going out together. To me, the process of knowing all my frenz will always be a memorable and unforgettable one... coz in my heart, frenz stays forever... without them, there wun be me to enjoy my secondary school life, poly life and the rest of my life... well, am i getting emotional again.. tears falling? dun worry, i am able to control it... doesnt mean that gals will drop tears easily... as time goes by, we learn to be strong too...
Will blog again... going to take a break and watch tv... at the same time, listening to JJ's song... his songs reali rocks... his songs and Celine Dion's as well as some songs from S Club 7 are the ones that can reali make me shed... muz be saying if shed still listen... its like so sad yet touch... its so real to me that it could happen in real life...
Takecare my Frenz.. miss ya and nitez.. Rest WeLL

FinaLLy..

2005-05-24T11:53:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh.. its been 10days since i last blogged... was busy with many stuff for the past ten days.. busy with? was busy with bAoc orientation.. and during this 10 days, many things did happen.. happy and unhappy ones too..
Today should be the start of school term but i am rite here blogging... why? coz i got no lecture today.. but i reali wish to return sch today lei.. coz today they said wear sport camp t-shirt go school.. haiz.. gonna miss the reD gang of NP... Wad will i be doing for tis last day of my holiday? hmm, i will be going out with mum as well as packing my messy room.. it super messy ever since i finish my exam.. have yet to pack it.. mum have been nagging all tis while liao.. Frenz who have been reading my blog muz be thinking wad happen to my blog.. no updates at all... well, its not that i dun wanna blog.. but i have plenty of stuff to blog... jus that i am too tire and at times busy till i do not have the time.. haiz... wads this.. y do i sound i m even busier b4 sch starts...
Listening to music diary rite now while blogging... do u know when was the last time since i last heard music diary? oh my god.. long long ago le.. i miss MD so much... miss the time i spend listening on my bed... listening while i was on bus.. listening while i was studying... haiz.. this holiday, reali hardly hear it... so sad... now playing a new song... a singaporean singer sing de... its says,( i rmb a person who always remains in my heart.. if there a day if the love reali occurs, no matter how far the road is, i will always make the dream come true... i love you.. love u always, jus like the rat who loves the big rice...i does not care how many difficulties we have to go through.. i am willing to be there for you. i miss you, missing you, if u are happy and i am happy... and i jus love you so. ) may not be the whole song, but its full of meaning.. so sweet.. but do you always say all tis word when u are present... do u say all tis to ur love ones? is it a promise? or u jus say it to make him/her to be happy dan the next day, u forget everything... Action speak louder dan words.. thats wad everyone say.. especially in a relationship... its not point that u keep saying how much i love u, how much u mean to me... yes, such words and sentence can reali melt anyone's heart including mine.. wad m i saying.. action? wad abt action.. shower her/him with all the care and concern, spend the amt of time u have with ur partner.. Hmm, music diary ended, i gotta go pack my room liao.. if not i wun have the time to finish packing.. i will come back again tonite...

TiRe, Tire, TiRe

2005-05-14T17:35:00.000-07:00

I am feeling quite weak though i had hours of slp at home liao... its been a long time since i last update my blog.. many things running through my mind... many things happened when i didnt blog... many things i wanna share.. many things i wanna tell buddies.. i miss my buddies alot.. i miss their shoulders.. i need a shoulder after days of camp in sch... not complaining that i didnt enjoyed myself in the camp... i do enjoy its.. but on the part of enjoyment, there are many things there were always running through my mind every min and second when i was in sch...the amount of time i had to spent in camp.. the amount of days i cant call and tok on phone with my darling, the amount of time i cant go out and meet him... many sacrifices i have to made.. while i am cheering and enjoying with the freshies and my frenz, i keep thinking of my dar, misses him so badly...
during the first two nitez, alot of unhappiness to happen... there was a part that we get to vent our anger out... its the part that i reali burst out in tears... i cried.. cry coz i m tire, coz i misses all my frenz, my dar... maybe in my appearance i may not seems worry... but in my heart and mind.. worry and fear kept accumulating...does anyone knows how i felt... wad fear am i having... no matter how much i mention abt the past, no one knows the amount of tears i have went through b4 getting the happiness i have with dar... its hard to find someone u love and reali love u in return.. i found him and i love him more dan anyone... i reali do..
On the other hand, handling the bunch of freshies made me recall of my life in dance... how hard was it to be a leader.. not a normal leader.. when i saw my fren frm dance the other day on my way to convention.. he asked, how can lose ur voice, u are the head of discipline... i miss those days... i dun regret been one.. when miss seet asked me to be another yr of discipline, i actually rejected even though my heart was wanting to accept the duty.. coz dance was rather shaky when yr past.. not saying that the juniors are lousely.. its jus that the discipline from them is less harsh.. when i first enter dance.. the discipline i received will be the most memoriable to me.. Dance.. a place where i will always repect and salute myself to. especially Mdam See, Miss Seet and Mr Low.
At the campfire nite, which everyone were looking forward to.. but to me... i reali hope to enjoy but i was running a fever at that moment..i was so afraid that i cant enjoy with them if others found out i was down with fever... luckily i ate panadol and plus the fone call i got from dar.. i felt much better... some saw my tears triggle when i was down with fever... coz i was reali weak and the feeling was very scary.. i scare i might collasped and cause the campfire to stop.. i dun wan that to happen.. was glad that we GLs sat at the back and the alert was not big.

The daY iS arriVing..

2005-05-07T23:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm, got up at 12pm... also dunnoe why can slp until so late.. well.. when woke up, bro was abt to go out liao.. so after that went out with mum to bugis... keke.. i m the one who ended up buying stuff but at 3pm, we went to simply thai to eat.. i ordered beef noodles for mum while i had tom yam noodles.. keke.. after that, we carry on our shopping while waiting for dad... wow.. saw alot of stuff that reali wanna to buy for myself.. but hate it when it reminds me that i didnt work tis holiday and yet i m spending here and there.. saw one pants, nice swim wear, nice dress, nice shirt, nice and big watch.. oh my god.. so many nice things to buy... i wish i can work... sad... at 5pm., we decided to go.. feeling rather tire liao.. dan saw this fashion.. saw a skirt wanna to buy but dun have my size. In the end, we went to 7eleven and bought some drink... i went to buy avocado juice instead... recently, i am kind of addicted to this fruit juice coz its reali nice and the taste goes well with honey too.. but jus now i drank was with milk.. nice too.. keke..
I was surprise when i was drinking the juice, i saw that we are able to book in at 830pm... as compared to the 11am meet and allow to leave at 6pm and be back by 830pm.. its kinda give me an impression that we are like army pple... in fact, army pple are least better as they only need to book in the 11pm on sunday to wad i know... well, doesnt matter now, jus enjoy my day at home to my fullest extend... takecare frenz... nitez.

Jus GoT uP

2005-05-04T11:25:00.000-07:00

Jus got up an hour ago.. here i m blogging... nth much to blog... will be going to chalet later... chatting with fish rite now.. trying to vent all our anger out to one another and how unhappy we are rite now.. haiz... y am i making myself so busy? y did i choose the path and create some problems and unhappiness which i dun wanna it to happen? y cant my holiday be fun... give me break.. i need time to rest, to pack my room... if those who have being constantly reading my blog will know i am always typing the same thing.. people is MIA (missing in action).. was abt me? can i MIAF? missing in action forever and enjoy myself b4 the terms starts again...
nth much to say... will blog something better and happier when i encounter it... takecare freNz.. and Miss Ya..

EnJoyabLe dAy..

2005-04-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

Got up at 9am.. went to school late. At 1030am dan reach coz finding my mentoring shirt and something wrong with bro's i-pod. We waited for the cloth to come dan we drew and painted.. fish and i painted only some of the white base and left. coz we gotta attend an exchange program for mentoring.. we reached there at 1230pm but only saw two mentoring in-charge there... if we know, will have come later and complete the white base of the flag first... so when one of the lady came, she told us to go ahead with the buffet.. hmm, dan we have some food while waiting.. at abt 1pm.. everyone came.. there are pple from SP, NYP, SMU, NTU and also pple from Israel.. they were all very friendly.. we sat in a U shape and the first speaker to share its experience was from SP... i tot the speaker was going to read a bible book...anyway, no offence... jus reminds me how a pastor actually holds a book... dan a major guest of honour came and after a few words from him and mr yap, we have talk from the Israel pple.. sometimes, i reali could not catch wad they are toking coz their english are way to chim to understand... everything ended at 5pm.. and we took a few pics with the Israelis and went off with fish coz wanching and huixin were waiting for us.. as well as lorraine.. coz we wanna have dinner with her as her birthday celebration.. but we gotta wait coz she got SC meeting.. so we went to atrim and chatted while waiting..
We decided to go to Holland Village and eat.. Lorraine recommended essential brew.. we went upstair and the atmosphere there was reali great.. wow.. perfect... we sat near the window there and started ordering our food.. while looking at the menu, we had lotsa laughter.. felt so bad that the waiter actually came twice or thrice to ask if we are ready with the order.. we were laughing like the name of the dishes and drink... keke.. lorraine even funny, we ask her wads nice over her, know wad ans she gave? she told us as long as got the chief hat, it will be nice.. oh my god, who dun noe that.. haha.. thanks arh lorraine..
It took abt half an hr like that for all the food to arrive.. i ordered BBQ chicken and Canberry drink.. all the food and drink were not bad.. we enjoyed ourself alot.. after the meal, we ordered a slice of birthday cake for lorraine.. oh my god, we were stunned like y haven they put the candle yet?? alamak... so we gotta cover lorraine's eyes by asking her to see the menu again while i took the cake and went to the counter to put the candle and have it lighted up.. i walked very slowly coz the candle can light out anytime.. we sang her birthday songs, took fotos with her and play 'zhong ji mi ma' to punish us to eat finish the strawberry cheese cakes...
At 9pm like that, we went off.. dan we passed by foster and i went to peep in and saw eileen, haha... she saw me too.. means she wasnt busy... kidding.. she was standing there.. waved bye to her and left..Had a great great time with lorraine, fish, wanching and huixin... looking forward to more of such outing and enjoyable moment.. keke.. takecare...

GreAt DaY

2005-04-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

Well, i reali had a great day today.. though something unhappy is running through my mind today.. i was suppose to have sc training today de.. but my clg did not even confirm with me abt it until last min.. more over i have already agreed to meet up my secondary sch class buddies.. how could i miss this gathering.. tell me...
hMM, i got up at 1oam... mum cooked porriage and i had one bowl and a bowl of soup before going out.. we were all meet at 12pm at somerset.. but i received dino's msg, saying that she and hy will be going for an interview so will reach at 1pm like tat.. so i msg dh that we will reaching at 1pm... and i meet them up at 1pm at cine-leisure.. at around 130pm, everyone finally arrived.. while some are working and will be joining us later. so we went up to level 8 to k box.. keke.. tis is my third time going.. and tis time round is with my secondary frenz... so looking forward.. we had quite a big room coz its was abt 11person.. we started off singing.. we dedicated alot of old songs especially like the grasshopper. brought back lotsa memories.. and we even dedicated the song, 'yue liang rei de huo'... keke.. its all the moon that cause the trouble.. we sang tis in secondary 2 during mooncake festival.. so funny.. keke. dan the guys more power, sang alot of cantonese and hokkien songs... we went in at 2pm like tat.. know wad time we got out of the room? 930pm... haha... anyone is shock? keke.. its like 7hrs 30mins or singing.. haha... even my mum is like WAD... haha.. my bro oso shock... keke... hmm, dan when we wanna go for dinner, the food court is almost closing liao.. so no choice, they decided to go to the jap food one.. but dino and i decided to go home first coz its late if taking bus.. so i took 190 home and went to my house downstairs and bought two packets of mee home.. one for bro, one for myself.. but i am reli mad over the store already. its my second time encoutering it and waiting for such a long time.. first was that they gave my packet of mee to other people.. and as a result i had to wait for 45mins or even an hr.. so mad.. dan tonite was like, i told her one packet mee one packet mee hoon, how i know mee hoon is know as wad tong xin feng.. oh my god... out of 10 pple, who will know abt it.. in the end, she only cooked mee and finally ask me wad i ordered... oh my god.. she dan told me no more mee hoon.. reli can die man if i gonna live on their food.. i rather cook maggi liao in future...
Anyway , i dun wish to let tis matter spoilt my day.. a day which i have been looking forward to... i enjoyed myself alot today.. thanks 4/5 frenz.. you are the BEST.. good nite and takecare.

HoLidaYs Pls..

2005-04-26T22:14:00.000-07:00

All i ask for is holiday for me rite now.. a time that i can spend with my secondary school buddies, hanging out with my FO3 buddies not coz we gotta do banner or projects but jus purely to go out shopping, chatting and hanging around with one another, spending them at home packing my room, accompanying my mum out to shop and spending all the time i wan with my darling... Why.. its holiday but why does it seems like i am returning to sch most of the time.. i am getting more and more fed up not coz i went back sch today for Baoc.. sometimes i thought to myself, maybe in the past i will reali devote myself to anything i join.. but now ever since i joined Sports camp.. there's like not no free time and freedom for me and my frenz.. i am tire and i hate to reject frenz meeting me up for gathering.. in the past, i was the one who organises gathering for secondary sch buddies but now, thanks to daihua, he helped this time round by ensuring majority of them are free to meet up.. I miss them.. i miss hanging out with them.. besides that, i am even more afraid conflict and misunderstanding will arises sooner or later.. a person can be understand at all times, but i believe there is always a limit to its understanding and i muz be aware of it too.. if not, u will regret and u will lost something u will regret for the rest of your life.. I understand it most coz i once lost it and i dun wan the feeling to return back ever again.. it hurts and reali stabs ur heart..
I rmb on 17th april that i went to pray my grandparents.. when i went in to find the place where the 'gu hui' was.. i found it and when i look up from ladder coz it was quite high and tears jus starts rolling off from my eyes.. i told myself why did my grandma left us so early.. i was still young, i hav yet to work, i hav yet to bring her out for good food which she have yet to try out coz she was thrifty and will rather cook something simple at home and not spend outside.. she loves to eat too but she jus wun bare to spend.. she loves shopping too.. if she were to be here around rite now, i will not bother abt how much i gotta spend, jus bring her to eat good food and good place to shop.. If, IF, If.. in this world, if there are so many IF.. many things will not happen which you dun wan to.
There is so many things i reali wanna do during tis holiday.. and i reali dun wanna miss it.. coz i dun wan any regret.. so pls.. i need the time, this holiday to spend with all my love once which includes all my frenz and family members..

YaWnzZ

2005-04-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

Hi my dear frenz.. its been again a long time since i last blogged.. was away for Hk for a week.. has been feeling so tire since i got back.. haven had enough slp for long time.. in HK, had only 4 to 5 hours of slp every day.. but everything was worth it.. the fun and joy i had with my frenz... get to know my frenz more better through this trip and a fruitful experience i got from this journey..
Its sunday today, i got up at 1130am.. later dan usual coz i can like slp until dun noe the time.. though rite now i am feeling super tire, i can still blog for a while.. got up liao, went for lunch at causeway point with family...after which send brother to work dan went to bugis with parents.. wanted to buy a pair of shoes which i seen it before i went HK, but who knows.. when i wanna buy, there isnt any size that i wan.. so sad.. think tml wanna go check out other stores ba.. once i like something, i am determined to find it ba.. keke.. hmm, feeling tire liao.. time to go dreamland liao.. good nite and sweet dreamzZ...

Finally Here I aM

2005-04-12T19:16:00.000-07:00

Wow.. its been a long long time since i last blog.. i shall type what i have been busy all this while..
From 6th to 8th of April, i was at Sports Camp with a bunch of funky frenz. I enjoyed myself during that few days despite the rain, the few hrs of slpness as well as some scolding from the in-charge.
During the first day, we arrived at school at 8am and we had to clean the sports hall with our rag and dry the rag and clean it or else we can forget abt slping liao.. next is we had to discuss for our identity, our design for our flag as well as design for the leaflet... wa.. so many things to do.. if i am not wrong , we were given 1hr plus to finished up before we can proceed our lunch.. keke. we had a cheer for our meals before eating.. that sound stupid at first.. but when u know how to sing, u will find it reali interesting.. The food we have for every meal reali cannot make it but jus to force myself to finish up coz we need the food for the energy to play and enjoy ourselves, if not, we can forget abt playing. What next, hmm, i think is playing of games in five different stations but after the first station, it started to drizzle and lighting plus thunder came along. keke.. so we had our five stations indoor instead. I enjoyed too and hydrus rocks too.. oh ya, btw, my grp is call hydrus.. it reali rocks. At first, everyone was like in their own world, reali not much to tok abt but reali glad that clemence was in our grp coz he reali bring fun and joy to the grp which reali motivates everyone in the grp to interact with one another. I admit i was also too quiet at first coz i felt like extra in the grp or is like there is reali nth to tok abt coz we only know each other not long. Dan after all the games, i started to feel that we are getting to interact with one another and the bond seems to be much more closer. hmm, on the first nite itself, we had nite track or so call it a treasure hunt. there were 21 clues altogether and we are suppose to find it in the nite time.. every where is dark.. how to find. especially at the area in track and field area.. total darkness.. all the other grp no. we can find but jus not grp7 which is hydrus. oh my god.. Dan at 12am like that, everything ended, we only found 7clues.. so we sort of considered loser too so we had our supper first dan we can bath.. our whole body is like super glue man.. so hot and sticky.. cannot take it.. quickly went for a bath after supper.. Dan at 3am which i was abt to get some slp liao and where my eyes were abt to close, siren came.. wad siren.. fire siren.. oh my god.. wad stupid exercise is that when everyone's eyes were abt to close liao.. We were been lectured for been late coz we took 4mins to assemble at the grand stand..After that, we went back our slp.. and very fast lor, 6am liao, got up and continue with the training ahead..
Well, as for Day 2, we had our five station games again but this time round, its all different games and we enjoyed ourselves very much too.. together with pyxis.. during afternoon, we went to orchard to embrassed ourselves by wearing our clothes upside down... dan lying around orchard ground.. its indeed a memoriable one.. haha. Dan we went on to Jurong Point for our dinner.. after which, we went to CCk cemetry by 172.. At 12am plus, we finally reach school liao.. we had briefing before bathing and supper..

Day 3... got up as usual.. went for PT.. dan after that, had bread as breakfast.. after that, we had games in the baby pool.. dan we had our lunch at the sport gallery.. at 1pm onwards, we devote ourselves to the flag design and painting ... everything ended at 730pm... its was so tiring.. i went to meet my parents after that for dinner.. after which, i went home and KO... keke...

Just Woke Up

2005-04-04T12:05:00.000-07:00

Its already 12 noon liao.. and i jus woke up coz i had a very bad stomachache last nite.. didnt slp well... dunnoe wad i ate.. i had handmade noodles at millenia walk for lunch and dinner at genki sushi with my family.. but they seems to be alright lei... oh my god.. muz be me eating alot of chilli again liao.. coz my noodles was spicy de.. keke..
Yesterday huh.. hmm, went out with family the whole day... Went to Suntec City, had lunch, had lunch.. dan we went around walking.. and at the same time, my purpose is to buy JJ's ablum and i did.. keke. . so happy when i buy...insert the disc and listen to it immidately.. keke.. After that , we went home coz dad gotta attend a wedding dinner.. dan left with mum, brother and me.. we went to the plaza to have sushi at genki... to wad i expected, after dinner, i did not went out but went home to watch movie... turn left turn right... Well, thats how i spend my holidays... Takecare Frenz

I will cherish every moment

2005-04-03T13:47:00.000-07:00

There's one thing that i have learnt jus few hours ago.. though i have been always using this to tell my frenz out there whenever they have a problem.. but i forget to apply tis to myself when i have a problem.. especially when i do not have a sense of security.. that is why i was thinking negatively for all this while that makes me unhappy and feeling unsafe... I told myself this after thinking wad a fren jus said... Never to Force someone to do something they dun like.. Always let things go nature by itself.. only dan, u will see the person happy and u will be happy too... Frenz and To my love ones out there, follow your heart and do wad u think is rite and wad u reali wan.. only dan u will find the way out and be happy for life.. coz a Lifetime Happiness is wad i want for all my frenz and love ones as well as for myself...If my frenz and love ones are happy, dan i will be happy too.. thanks for letting me realise this..
Suddenly i jus think i am growing up again... jus becoz of tis sentence... it impacted my feelings for the past few hours or even past few mths... making me feel even positive... but still, my sense of security, that is my 'an quan gan' is still lacking... i need that to ensure that i m safe, aiya how to say lei.. its like, if u love someone, u need to give that person the assurance so than he/she will be assure that u realli loves her... i am not saying dar is not giving me any assurance but maybe i think too much and somehow i think i need more than that... I am jus like any ordinary gal who wans to be dotted on and loves me forever jus as much as i love him... Thats all i ask for.. am i asking for too much...? well... time will prove everything and i dun wish to think anymore but to enjoy my life happily... Frenz too... enjoy urself this holiday and miss ya... takecare..

~boRing dAy~

2005-04-01T23:24:00.000-08:00

Got up at 11am plus... consider late to me but eye only manage to open at that time if i have nth on that day.. Exam over.. suddenly all of a sudden, dunnoe wad to do.. stay at home whole day... can go mad like tis if tis carrys on... coz when u are at home, u tend to think alot and alot... Have been using the com almost whole day and watching tv... i use and use till i decided i m going crazy liao so i went for a run... run and run and run... turning my receiver to loudest.. ran for abt 15mins dan stop.. dan continue running... Got home dan grab 4 oranges out and make juice to drink... Thats how i spend my day.. oh ya.. fish change my blogskin for me liao.. thanks alot fish.. Well, other dan that. nth much le.. Takecare frenz and nitez.

Back from Ching's house

2005-03-31T21:48:00.000-08:00

Hmm, i am back after half a day of fun at wanching's house... Meet up with them at 3pm at toa payoh.. its was raining heavily over my area dan i ended up having my half of my pants been totally wet.. Dan we bought some snacks from the mini-mart.. oh my god, they like having war anytime.. bought so many but we still ate most of them without fail.. keke ... Dan we waited for paige and jasmine to arrive before we start off with the game--- monopoly.. its been a while since i last played... thinking if my house still got the game anot. but jasmine last min cant make it so we played when paige arrived. I ended up ended bankrupt coz i gotta pay paige for her newly built stupid hotel which cost me more dan $10,000... i count also nv count how much i have dan i declare bankrupt immediately liao.. keke. Dan we went on playing Uno-stacko... enjoyed it alot... Despite having so many snacks, we still went for our dinner at the hawker centre.. we all had prawn noodles.. Dan after that, we went home at around 8pm... its was an enjoyable day...
When i alighted from 75.. i decided to walk home coz i hate 920 for been so long.. moreover... i will take it as a form of exercise after my dinner... turning on my receiver to full blast.. listening to all the hits been play by the DJs... Mood suddenly turned down coz its been almost 10days since i last meet up with my dar..missing him every single moment.... Really hope to meet up with him asap tis coming weekend.. hope nth will crop up... if not, i will be having slpless nitez... April is coming in less dan 3hours... my wish for April tis yr is nth will happen and pray that all my buddies especially dino will be happy.. i dun wan any april fool jokes..it will be jus an ordinary day for me.. cant wait to meet up with her and chat up... wonder when she will be free and hope she will complete her last paper tml happily.. Takecare and miss ya...

Wow...Finally

2005-03-31T12:11:00.000-08:00

Well.. finally this day has arrived.. my frenz and i have finally completed our exams liao... isnt it fast? our year 1 journey has ended in less dan a yr... thinking of it.. its reali hard to believe it lei. hmm, as for all the papers ma... i am reali kinda afraid of my biz management coz i crapped throughout the whole paper... reali dunnoe wad to write on the ans booklet liao.. reali sad over it... As for the rest.. overall should be ok ba... i reali hope can score well dan my previous term... reali reali wish that to happen.. its been a week or more of struggle and stress over me.. finally its over... thinking that i can blog peacefully now liao... no more stress...
After paper today... me, fish, paige and wendy.. the four of us.. we went to catch movie.. wanna watch miss congenality initially.. but ended up watching eye10... to me overall.. its a not bad show ba.. nice to me... but some part stupid.. keke...After that, paige and wendy went off first coz they got something on after that.. dan left with me and fish.. we went on shopping around... didnt eat dinner yet coz we still not hungry.. aft abt 830pm like that, we went to long john silver.. oh yeah, i finally get to eat my favourite salad... it has been a long time since i last make salad... with many many fruits and vegetables.. so nice.. dan we went to 7eleven.. oh my god..the U magazine has sold out.. i wun give up searching de... dan we took 180 home.. i got home at abt 10pm plus..
Hmm, gotta go for lunch liao.. later going to wanching house to play... back liao dan blog again.. takecare...

Pressure

2005-03-23T19:13:00.000-08:00

hmm, got up at 11plus today... mum asked me to accompany her buy present dad... shop for a few hours finally bought a wallet that is nice.. but in my mind... exam jus cant get off my mind though... Am i giving myself alot of pressure?? i dunnoe.. i am feeling totally stress up.. got study but seems like never finish de.. going to burst out anytime.. Perhaps its the expectation that i am setting for myself that makes me feel so stress up... gotta go for dinner... takecare frenz..

its 1yr and 4mths

2005-03-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

Hmm, jus got home not long ago.. went to makan with my buddies at NYDC at holland village.. had a great time with them... i order 'posh spice' which has sliced chillies on top.. not hot ba.. added more cheese and chillies too.. We stay there for almost an hr plus.. chatted.. during that period of time, somehow feel that we have finish all our exam liao..but when the slience is there again.. i feel the stress again.. haiz.. so stress... before that, we actually had our BCA final test... and i reali hope i could get a B and above... was trying to aim high too but didnt do well for the first test.. thats why... haiz.. Just bath, now blogging while drinking a pot of green tea coz jus now eat alot dan feeling indigestion.. keke.. maybe coz put alot of cheese thats y..hmm.. last but not least.. its 22nd of March today.. keke.. takecare and smile frenz...

stress

2005-03-20T09:37:00.000-08:00

StreSSSsssss... bUt i wuN giVe up .....
FroM strEsssssss. jiA you...

Hmm.. lots of thought right now

2005-03-18T15:10:00.000-08:00

Jus finished watching last nite's 9pm show, You Are The One.. hmm, rmb wad meide said to An Zheng Xi.. saying that she is one who is a perfectionist, who wans her love life to be full of surprises and romanitc events happening... i am one too, i am one who pursuits a relationship that is perfect, sweet, romantic and memoriable... hmm, right now, i think i am contented with what i have with my dar ba coz no one is perfect.. we cant expect whatever we wish to happen immdiately in front of us..
Hmm, another thing... when my frenz are unhappy, i will be unhappy too... haven heard from dino for a long time, jus saw her online and chatted for less dan 5mins and realise something again happen... haiz... i wish we were still classmates coz i get to know wad will happen immediately and will be there for her.. reali misses the time when we always chatted together. Right now, hope she is ok and follow her heart and make the rite decision. Next, i have another fren who is unhappy oso... jus from a nick, i can sense the unhappiness my frenz are having... i jus hope my fren is ok.. dun be bother by the unhappy stuff that had already happened.. coz we muz look ahead and plan for the next second.. by looking back wun bring u anyway.. I know u may not listen to what i have write here.. but do look positive coz i am ur fren and i believe u can do it de.. Have faith in urself too k ... u know who u are and i reali hope to hear from u and its a normal and cheerful u .. takecare Frenz..

Hmm, had a great day..

2005-03-18T01:32:00.000-08:00

Its Thursday, 17th March 05.. Today attended the final tutorial lesson for macro.. feeling very stress the moment i enter the class.. feeling all the stress and pressure given... i am aiming high for myself.. but i am reali stress over it.. haiz... its good to aim high.. but when it disappoints you.. its reali hurts alot.. alot.. but right now, never will i give up coz i am golden teo.
After macro, me, fish, wendy, ching and paige went to town to buy stuff... keke.. we went to magic walk and had our lunch.. the food there was like no need money to buy salt like tat.. quite salty lei.. and also very oily. ate until quite xin ku.. After lunch, we carry on with our shopping.. oh my god, i saw the NIKE gym bag that i seen in the magazine.. its so nice and nice.. oh my god, cant believe that i could find it today. but too expensive for me.. dun bare to buy it. Finally at wheel-lock place, we decided to settle down with the gift that we had decided on earlier... hmm, dan left with me and fish, we went on shopping around... We went to wisma and we went to shops like roxy, and fila... oh my god, we saw a bag that the both of us reali likes alot.. and we decided on buying it.. but we were still hesitating over the colours.. so we decided to slowly think while at the same time, we carry on our shopping at heeren... oh my god, i saw the T-shirt from adidas again.. its sooo nice lei.. but it doesnt have any discount lor.. so sad.. if got, i confirm buy liao..again.. OH my god, i saw a Tweety bird soft toy.. super duper nice and super duper cute lei.. its totally different from those u seen at cine there where the head supe big that make it not so nice one... but this time round, tis tweety that fish and i saw were reali super cute lor.. i almost wanna buy.. haiz.. dan at another shop, i saw another bigger version of it.. again.. its super duper cute and cute lor.. wa... how great it wuld be i have one and i will be flying high up in the sky liao... keke.. reali lei.. tweety bird is jus so cute..rite.. keke.. While entering Heeren, guess who i saw? haha, i saw DHL, its not delivery halfway lost, dun mistaken. its my frenz in my secondary school one..daihua... keke.. what is he doing there lei.. go ask him lor.. keke . After shopping for a while, he called me and meet up with me and fish.. chatted a while and we went to cine and he meet Hanhui there and fish and i went off after me saying hi and bye to hh..
Finally, we stepped into wisma again and this time round, we have decided to buy and we bought.. at the same time, i also bought a pair of slippers at $10 which have a discount with purchase of $60 and above.. hmm, i reali like the bag soooo much lei.. its black and white... thinking of the colour combination, i cant stop thinking abt the NIKE gym bag again.. the design, and its quality that is made of.. wow... perfect and excellent...
At nite, seeing that boogeyman starting at 945pm at Cck, family and i decided to go watch... oh my god, its a stupid show.. scared for nothing.. a short story.. guess this movie does not involve high cost.. keke.. better stop saying before this movie turns into a bucket of shit..After movie, went to have supper at Red Hill... had yong tau hu which is specially on during nite time, many pple were queuing.. waited for abt 15mins.. Very full now.. thats y i m blogging now.. keke ...

My GL mates

2005-03-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

Hmm, what a tiring day today... got up at 10plus..hmm, dan everyone were bothering over the tutorial class on whether to go or not coz majority were confuse over it. Dan the final decision came and everyone ended up didnt go. Haiz..
Dan at 5pm like tat, i went back to sch.. not for lesson, but for my SC training at 6pm.. meet yu and paige at the sch bus stop 5.45pm.. hmm, when reached, i finally saw my CGL, mudd, a very friendly and funny guy.. Everyone gathered and we were lead down to do warm up first. the warm up was so funny, it started off with the leg.. thinking of the warm up that the CGL was leading that moment, memories came back all again, thinking that during dance practice.. how i lead every of my member to do the warm up.. its totally different.. all i rmb was seriousness and discipline all along.. whoever isnt following or never do, we will sure to pump everyone. coz one for all, all for one.. thats how our dance society is all along.. i really misses the life in dance.. especially when its under me.. really enjoyed the fun i had with each and every member. Appreciate the co-operation i have from everyone though it can be tough at times but ever since i was appointed, i believe i can do it and i must prove it. I still rmb when i had to hand over my position, i was feeling so sad.. coz i dun bare to.. But no matter wad, the day that i was given the chance to be the head of discipline, i really appreciate Ms Seet or rather Mrs Wong who is already married who have given me this chance to prove myself to be a leader.. without that position, i wouldnt be as confident as now. Thanks Ms Seet (Sounds more younger hor) keke..
Aiyo, back to my event for today.. after the warm up, we were lead to run around the sch.. luckily it was not that far.. still can manage.. keke.. after that, we celebrated our president's birthday. if i m not wrong, he turned 20 today. Dan we are back to our games... the first game was the straw thing dan follow by the pingpong.. next is the spiderweb, we have to guide our members through the hole blind-folded.. but however, everyone gotta go throught the mud. hmm, after that went to play the chair thing that everyone have to move together dan bring another chair forward. finally, the last game is to go round the pole for 10 and 20 rounds dan bite a cup of water and bring to another end of the pail to pour off. All this ended at 830 like...so late liao.. dan we muz return to sports deck for briefing.. finally at 9pm like tat, we can go home liao. I cant go with my GL group coz mum cooked.. felt so extra though i really wanna go but too tire and hungry.. hope they will not mind. Hmm, after that, headed home..
Overall, enjoyed being with my GL.. all very fun-loving.. Takecare fRenz.. nitez.

Hmm, another sunday gone

2005-03-13T22:11:00.000-08:00

Well, i got up at 1030am and went out with family at 11am.. we went to tanjong pager first to buy fruits. follow by which, we went to Amoy street to have our lunch.. after that, we went to suntect city to change our SCV box.. alot people at suntec coz of the IT show that is on today and which will be the last day. hmm, dan brother , me and mum went up to take a look and after much consideration, we decided to buy one.. a cheap one ba coz all i need is jus printing.. so to me is can print, i happy liao.. but if got more function also not bad la.. keke..
After that , we went to redhill there to have some desert dan at 2plus, drove brother to work. dan we got home and i started off with my installation of printer.. keke... i did it.. i can install myself lei.. keke. give myself a tap on my shoulder .. keke. After that, at 430pm, parents went to meet my uncle coz he got his keys for his new flat at toa payoh.. i wanted to go initially but instead, i stayed at home and watch tv.. keke.. hasnt been relaxing at home for a quite a long time.. keke..so stay at home for the rest of the day shaking legs and blogging now.. thats all for now.. takecare frenz.. nitez..

Wad an Enjoyable Day

2005-03-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

Hmm, had a very enjoyable day with my grp of buddies.. meet my buddies at 1pm.. but still late.. reached at 130pm coz of the jam at orchard.. sry .. keke.. we bought the tickets and went to catch HITCH.. overall is just ok la.. cant say very good.. after movie, we head down to crystal jade and order five dishes altogether.. wow... so nice.. miss the chilli there so much.. finally get to try some of it.
After that we went to fountain of the wealth and frenz and i went to make a dedication for our birthday gal.. she was so surprise when her name as been called and followed by which, the laser came out with our dedication. After hearing, we took a group foto.. wow.. so memoriable.. it let me reminds of my 15th birthday that year.. celebrated with dino, toin and pank instead.. can still rmb the whole scene clearly that very day.. they dedicated my favourite song, Never Had a Dream Come True by S Club 7.. they dedicated that song for me coz it really meant alot for me that particular yr and even now, its still as meaningful as before.. how special is that song to me? Its very very very special and memoriable.. had cake been cut at sky garden after that..miss them so much... miss my secondary sch life too..
After that, parents came and fetch me home after their dinner at marche at heeren there.. got home at 10pm plus.. so tire yet happy... Thanks buddies... hope my dar had a great day at his frenz house too... takecare and miss ya frenz...

Buffet and mentoring talk..

2005-03-11T22:45:00.000-08:00

Its a tiring day, got up at 645am.. went to school for CATS.. had tis last and final lesson. All the skit were very funny.. enjoyed it alot.. after that, went back home again though i suppose to go out to have my hair cut.. but last min not meeting fren, so went home first. dan wait for bro to wake up dan went out at 11am plus.. imagin our haircut appointment is at 12pm at clark key.. aiyo.. had my hair trimmed, but i think is more of cut.. coz quite short liao le. dan went high tea with mum and bro after that... was so full and kinda feeling unwell coz ate too many oyster liao.. dan stomach was so cramp.. hmm, glad that now feeling better liao..
At about 415pm, i went off to take bus and went back to school for mentoring.. attended a talk by eilm chew.. She is the owner of 77th street.. she is a very friendly and kind lady.. she gave us a very good talk and i really learnt alot of things.. when she showed us a video clip, my eyes were watery liao.. luckily i manage to hold back my tears. the whole talk ended at 7plus... after that went dinner with fish and cheryl.. oh ya, cheryl, dun put to heart of what others say.. if it ever happen again.. may the person's mouth rot and rot till it stinks worse dan shit.. and also, you and fish are always one of my close buddies whom i love to hang around with and even though we may not be in the same class but our frenship is recognised deeply in my heart long long ago since the day i know you... Takecare frenz and SmiLes..

memorable event

2005-03-10T23:48:00.000-08:00

Hmm, today's lesson ended at 3pm.. had macro lesson and final BCA lesson. after that, accompany yu and grp see their rehersal while waiting for dar.. left around 3plus.
Felt so relax especially after reaching changi.. seeing air planes flying out of singapore and back to singapore.. the feeling was soooo great.. i love to see planes... so near to you .. how i wish i can touch it when it flew past me.. not only that, the wind was extremely strong.. you can doze off easily.. but i jus wun doze off.. coz i wanna enjoy the moment that i always wanted to have and enjoy the moment of this place which i always wanted to go.. from the beach, i can see tekong.. dar had alot of memories.. from far, tekong was like a resort to me.. so nice one.. if singapore's sea water are as clear as australia style.. wuldnt it be great and enjoyable... and the sand to be smooth and walking barefooted... no matter how, i haven been so relax for past few months liao.. enjoying the sea breeze is one of my greatest way of reducing my stress and seeing air plane flying here and there is jus so carefree.. how i wish i can fly without any worries coz life can be stress at times..

Yawn.. extremely tire

2005-03-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

I am super duper tire today.. but before i really go and rest, i wanna said something.. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to WanChing.. happy birthday to you.. keke.. happy birthday wanching.
Today reached school to bind our project for business management. Finally, our last project is done.. oops, still got CATS haven finish.. haiz.. gotta wait for friday to present our skit. hmm, dan we went in class at 920am.. the teacher was rather unhappy..dun understand her, dun allow pple for explaination.. cannot tolerate such attitude.. especially a teacher. After lesson, melinda and i went to do cats while the rest of gals were doing their cats too..
After that, we went to fast east to eat ramen and at the same time to celebrate ching's birthday.. after that, we went shop shop around.. dan i decided to buy ching's a flower coz to me i think that when a gal turn 18, it wuld be sweet to receive a flower on her birthday itself.. coz thats how i feel about it.. hmm, hope she will like the sunflower.
Next we went to walk walk, dan fish called Ronald coz she said he is working at paragon.. so qiao that he was abt to come out from paragon.. fish met him and chatted with him. after that he went to taka to take goods i suppose dan we gals carry on our shopping.... keke... After that, some went home some went movie, while i went to wait for my mum and went to chinatown. While shopping at OG, brother called and he joined us. dan dad came to fetch us to go makan dinner... wad a tiring day.. not tire but hor is i nv slp much last nite.. thats y.. now going to KO liao.. good nitez.. keke

Sunday

2005-03-06T19:35:00.000-08:00

Well, hi everyone.. another sunday is going to say goodbye liao.. spend almost whole day at home doing my biz management project... type alot of crap inside.. hmm, i got up at 10.30am and watch cartoon dan had bao as my breakfast..after that, watch Tv for a while dan started off with my project.. at 530pm, went to plaza with parents coz i need to buy some facial wash which is going to use up soon.. dan saw looney tunes got 40 to 50 percent discount.. so drag mum went in and see.. bought a small handphone casing, dan while waitng to pay, i saw a tweety bird clock... wow.. sooooo nice lei... i was so tempted to buy it.. when i paid, i ask the cashier how much was it, she somehow told me is like 20plus like that.. wa.. quite ex.. tweety, i will buy you some other day liao.. coz no money liao.. keke.. but my heart is still with you.. takecare frenz and have a nice week ahead.. miss ya..

caN i Stop the time??

2005-03-05T21:37:00.000-08:00

caN i Stop the time??

2005-03-05T05:25:00.000-08:00

I have a question... can i stop the time which i wish to have the moment to be spent wisely and memoriable without anyone disturbing... i really wan to stop the clock..Can i?? wouldnt it be great to remind in a dreamland which you always wanted... maybe i am jus too tire.. thats y i m here toking alot of rubbish.. i jus got home not long ago... bathed and sitting in front of com to type tis blog.. many things running through my mind..

Got up early in the morning to attend the last training for sport camp.. looking forward to the final games that we are going to play.. but too bad that fish cant make it coz she stomachache.. wonder what she ate.. hope she is feeling ok liao.. the whole event ended at 2pm like tat.. it was rather later lor.. dan was super tire and the time was late liao, so cant meet for project liao coz its late and moreover, fish is still unwell.. so would rather she stay at home and rest.. So at 23opm, dad came and fetch me home and reach home at abt 3pm.. so tire... when got home, i suddenly shiver very badly.. maybe coz of the wetness that i got .... so in order not to fall sick, i immediately went for a warm bath dan at 5pm, i went out to eat steamboat with dar... it was so crowded.. well, sad to say that gotta go home after dinner coz he gotta fetch his mum.. no choice but to go home.. how would i feel.. it would be bluffing if i say i am not sad.. coz i dun really like the feeling of meeting for only a few hours and then go home, tis applys to my frenz around me as well.. when i go out, mean that i wanna spent a long time with my dar and even frenz... coz to me, its a kind of respect and that i cherish the long period of meeting and chatting.. i am really sad over it.. but really cant blame me.. if i say i wasnt sad, means that i dun cherish the time being with him... i cherish it coz i wanna spend more time especially knowing that we cant meet much during the weekdays... i was so happy that i could meet him today coz normally its hard that we really go out on a weekend... not his fault.. coz his frenz all also in army so they can only meet up for gathering during a sat.. well.. getting too emotional liao.. gotta stop before i start flooding my blog... takecare and nitez..

Haiz..

2005-03-03T23:52:00.000-08:00

Today i am really feeling no good... jus dunnoe why everything jus seems doesnt to be rite.. very disappointed with myself.. feeling so stupid all of a sudden... wad had happen Teo HuiJing... wake up wake up... somebody pls slap me... am i myself.. haiz.. why am i saying all this.. its all abt studies again... i m really stress over sch life now though i might look i am enjoying it.. schooling can be very funny, but it can also be a hard to achieve something which you have promise and targetted for yourself... am i failure?? NO i am not... coz i know i can do it de... but on the other hand, i felt sad and disappointed again.. haiz... toking alot of rubbish... dunnoe.. jus that maybe i am stress over projects and test cum exam...

hmm, met up with PTDG

2005-02-26T23:47:00.000-08:00

Well, its another saturday. got up around 11am.. was super tire that i kind of reluctant to go out liao.. coz last nite i had training till 9plus.. quite later hor, dan went to makan with fish, wanching, paige, lorraine and sue-anne. Hmm, ate till quite full. Dan at 10plus, we went home sweet home. Took 171, oh my god, its jam at bukit timah area... two cars kissed one another. Jam for quite a long time, got home only at 11pm.. so late.. luckily still get to hear music diary.
Back to today, went out at 1230pm to meet up with PTDG coz its susu's birthday. hmm, we were suppose to meet at 1pm but i reach 1plus coz one hand i was late and the other hand, there was a jam. Dan when i reached, none was there and i called, susu and dino were at heeren doing survey.. oh ok dan i suppose it will be fast.. so i waited..oh my god, wad survey are they doing? its took them half an hour.. i was kind of mad liao.. coz the weather was so hot and pple were alot... Finally, there appeared and we went to taka for a walk dan pank meet us up..we dan went to coffee club to find a seat but it was packed.. so we went Breeks instead.. i ordered mocktail of the day as well as garlic mashed potato. One of the waiter was so blur that dino said that he look like Mj.. oh my god.. We started off chatting and eating... Chatted how fast life has been... how each of us are getting along... Sat till abt 4pm, we went to heeren to take neo-print.. susu said she say a gal in our secondary sch.. oh my god, i missed the look of her coz i wanna see how much diff she is since secondary sch... Dan we took two shots and i took the one that wasnt that well taken coz the background was wrongly choosen. hmm, dan we went off at 5pm.. took bus 7 with dino n susu while pank went suntec.. i went to clementi to meet my parents dan went to fetch my bro dan we went to meet our relatives for dinner at peach garden.. wow, the food were really delicious.. that was the best dinner i ever have...

Phobia for me?

2005-02-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

I got home today at 8pm.. what a tiring day... got up early in the morning for lecture, after that, we had written com test. a short test for writting letter.. it has been a long time since i last serious writting a formal letter. Hope everyone will pass well. hmm, after that, we went for lunch at alumni, order a few dishes, like the food there... nice and full.. keke. after that went to library for project. finally, completed BCA project after losing thousand of brain cells. keke. Dan my phobia started to come liao.. It an interview for my leadership camp. I m nervous though i didnt show it.. But having such interview has become a fear to me liao. Coz during secondary sch, i was so determine to become a student counsellor, that my frenz and i went for the interview.. and i rmb i was the one who was so determine to be one that i wanted to succeed in this interview. Still rmb the scene for that interview, it was at home economics room, i was so nervous. The result came out and those selected, names were called by the idiot guy whom till now i still hate him alot. Coz since those names were called out of the classroom, mean were having a higher chance of being selected and i was being called out. But out of dunnoe wad reason and till now i wish i would know. I wasnt choosen at all... I hate that guy for calling me out for giving me that hope to become one. I hate that guy that if he nv called my name, i wouldnt be upset even till now whenever i think of it. I still rmb that i burst out crying after i entered the class a few minutes later. and my frenz could still rmb till now when it was like 6yrs ago thing. Blogging this now makes my eyes and heart shattered to tears too..

Back to the interview i had today, overall, it was ok but i was still nervous after i got out of the room coz i rmb wad happened during my sec sch life.. its reali reali a phobia to me. I reali hope i will pass this interview and become a leader. Not only a leader but a potential one to prove to myself and that guy whom i will always rmb from that moment.

Wa... tire again

2005-02-20T07:22:00.000-08:00

Oh, haven been blogging for almost a week liao.. quite busy ba.. today also.. woke up at 10plus dan uncle came to my house to bai nian.. coz everytime they wanna come, we not at home. so glad that they finally came. After that we went to their house to bai nian too.. keke.. so funny. We sat till abt 3pm dan brother and i went to plaza to walk walk, didnt buy much stuff, only some instant noodles and sweets.. Then mum called back and say that they lost their way, imagine that they wanted to go jurong west but ended up at serangoon.. oh my god... how they drive one.. keke.. Dan i came home and ate cup noodles coz kinda hungry liao though had my breakfast around 11plus. dan parents got home, bought food for us, shui jiao n dou hua from serangoon.. wow, so nice lei.. but the shui jiao too expensive liao. eat also not worth it. So asked mum to go make at home and eat.. more cheaper. can eat until u full full.. keke.. At 6pm, brother's frenz came and my cousin came too.. Chatted with my cousin and had dinner together at my house.. finally at abt 9pm, i m able to rest.... but had a great day though... takcare frenz and miss ya lots

Eve of Valentine Day

2005-02-13T20:21:00.000-08:00

Jus got home, jus got out from bath.. jus came online and here i m blogging again... another day is gone.. knowing that a day is drawing near makes my heart sink even deeper.. Jus wish to turn off all radio for today n tml.. Jus wanna stop thinking of it but jus cant.. why muz such thing happen to me.. I jus wanna enjoy tis special day but i jus cant again.. Mind is really heavy.. Lock me at home, i jus dun wanna see whats happening outside the place..

Will any miracle happen? will anything change what has been planned? I want things to change and wan miracle to happen...

I m tire

2005-02-12T11:56:00.000-08:00

I am really tire.. many things are running through my mind rite now.. jus finished one disc of hai tun wan lian ren. While waiting for my hair to dry, so came to blog.. coz suddenly have many many thoughts running through my mind.

Got up early at 720am and went to sch at 8am,, waited for wanching, paige and liyu. We went to school for sports camp. At about 1150am, i gotta go liao coz i had an appointment with my relative n family at town for buffet at 1230pm and i dun wan to be late coz its my aunt's birthday.. but the sport camp haven end, still got one more game to go... dan i went to tell the incharge i gotta go liao... so when the in-charge allow me to go.. i went off immediately.. but before that i did let wanching, paige as well as fish know.. but didnt say an offical goodbye to them.. but i msg them liao to apologise.. but fish told me they were mad.. i dunno wad to say liao.. i didnt did it on purpose and i try my best to stay as late as possible liao. dan they told me jus joking with me.. another thing i felt bad is that i cant make it to cheryl house which i promise her and fish earlier on.. but last min, after buffet, my aunt suggested to go her house to cut cake and dan gamble a while.. its her birthday and of coz cant possibly reject her.. so i msg cheryl that i cant make.. reali feel so bad... cheryl and fish, i m so sorry abt it..

Too tire to continue anymore... my mind is heavy.. i m going to rest now.. takecare frenz n miss ya.. May aLL yoUr dreamz and Wishes coMe true...